Now that I was l spending time with Chris, (sissy) and Rachel, (in charge), I was feeling girly as I never had before. It affected the way I looked. I was keeping myself shaved smooth, all over.
I polished my nails (toes and fingers). I was wearing tighter pants and shirts. I usually wore sandals, without socks, my polished toes peeking out. One day I was sitting in my office and an officemate, Sheila, appeared at the door. When I looked up and said hi, she came in and shut the door behind her.
"You look very different these days," she said, smiling.
I hadn't officially come out as yet but it excited me that my new femininity was noticed.
"Yes," I said, deliberately putting a little lisp in my voice, and speaking a little softer. I had always loved Sheila's looks - and her manner. She was always very straightforward and assertive. She was attractive but not at all thin. She was tall, with nice legs, and a big bust. When I had my 'mommy' yearnings, which was often, she was always high up in my thoughts. Now here she was in my office, the door closed, and there I was, in my relatively girly look.
"So you're gay?" she said.
I nodded, eager to confess, especially to a 'mommy'.
"Are you in a relationship now?" she asked.
I nodded again.
"With a guy?"
Another nod.
"So, tell me all about it," she said, sitting down across from me, settling in.
"What do you want to know?" I asked.
"Well, do you live together?"
"Yes," I said.
"So who's the woman in the relationship?"
"We're both pretty femme," I said, "but I guess of the two of us, it's me," I said.
"So what do the two of you do?" she asked. Then she smiled at me. "The sex, I mean."
I felt a thrill go through me. She was sitting close to me. Her legs were crossed and I could see her bare thighs. I loved this scene, having fantasized about it often enough, having to confess to a woman my submissive sissy desires and actions.
"He fucks me," I said, "whenever he wants. I'm very submissive. I like to do whatever I'm told, whatever he wants."
She sat back a bit and her skirt rode up so I could see more of her.
"What about women?" she said. "Do you like them too? Does he?"
"We both do," I said. "You'd call us 'bi' I guess. But what I like most is if a woman makes me do things."
She smiled again, this time sitting back and uncrossing her legs. Her hand was lazily playing at the top button of her blouse.
"Like what?" she said. "Makes you do what?"