The learningThe knowingThe growing Thoughts that go flashing through my mindMaking me dizzy. I thought that I knew myself.Just what made me, me. I didn’t go looking for this knowledge,But hell, I’m glad for the knowing. You taught me so much.Even such a few hours. SomehowI always knew we could never last,The difference in needs too great. But oh the blaze,The delightful knowledge,How my intellect burns. I am stronger,More...

I thought I found someone.But he was not for me. I have needs.I need them to breathe. Then found another.God this might be. Gave what I wanted.Meeting my needs. Then in a flash, he withdrew.And I am left without a fucking clue.  

I thought I needed more. But what I lost, Was ten times greater. I thought that his needs, Would be worth the risk. My need was nothing, I learned, Compared to my despair. Thought I had conquered acceptance. But my heart is finding, I have no clue what it means. The depth of this pain, Has taken me to my knees. This throbbing emptiness. Worse than any I have ever known.  The agony of this terrible ache, Will destroy my he...

I accept that he is a married man. That this will only be, Ever online. I accept that his hands,  Will never touch me. Caressing my body,  Squeezing my ass. That they will never grab, A handful of hair. Pulling, to get my attention,  Or taking me from behind. I accept that his lips, Will never kiss mine. Our tongues intertwined,  Devouring each other. He will never taste my nectar, Nor bite into my flesh. I accept that ou...

Do you need to cum, babygirl? No dear, I am fine. When did you cum, babygirl? Last night, my dear. Were you thinking of me, babygirl? Of course, my darling. It had been so very long, And I had awoke to your comment. I couldn't restrain, my dear. My body ached for you. I needed to cum repeatedly. Again and again. I needed more, Maybe a third. Myself and two males. This would be new. You don't like that idea. There are thos...

I never asked for anything, I really didn't want you to know. Didn't want a commitment, Wanted to take it real slow. Just wanted for us to talk, To share and to learn. To become friends we could count on Before anything else would burn. I didnt want a week or a month, No, I wanted so much more.Wanted to build something to last. Something we could hold on to.Wasn't looking for anything casual. Or the mighty SLAM! BANG! I w...

Why is trust so lightly valued. So easily tossed. Into the wind. It takes but a callous comment, To hurt a feeling Or trample a heart. Maybe it should not have been So easily given, Right from the very start. When asked to stop! When hope is involved. To have those tender feelings Brandished about, Like a useless old rag. There is something precious lost, Never to be regained. Maybe being too sensitive, Maybe even overblo...

You come in the night.I wasn't expecting you.It has been so long.Your kiss is fierce.I am yours to claim.You want my mouth, Around your cock.I want your seed,Inside of me.As you slide in, You give me what I need.I listen closely, To hear you stroke.We talk and play.Oh, you know me well.My body responds, You make it ache.It only takes your voice,And a word or two.My world collapses,.Only to begin again.Again and again, You...

You know my every secret,The darkness of my past. More than any other,Yet still you held me fast.You told me everything,But I loved you still. Nothing in your life,Could stop the love I feel.All the little kinks,And all the crazy bends. We talked and talked,Became the best of friends.I shared my life,You shared yours. Families came next,They became ours.There were other things,Best not spoken of. Even with depravity,We ha...

Life is so confusing,Pulled this way and that. Battered by the tides and winds,You explain about the ships at sea. That I am its only Captain,And need to set its course. That these are my decisions,They are mine to make and change. But if I should veer off my course,You will be there to guide me through. Standing tall upon the shore,Your light shining bright and true. But you will only guide me,Not tell me what to do. You...

I am a woman. I am love. I am friendship. I am giving. I am silly. I am trusting. I am submissive. I am sexy. I am true. I am adorable. I am blushing. I am jealous. I am demanding. I am bitchy. I am mouthy. I am a cry-baby. When you say you love me, Please love all of them.

I have a secret,I cannot tell.I was taught that,a lesson learned well.I have a new secret,But still I cannot tell.It is forbidden,It would not go well.I am not ashamed,I would take the blame.But still it is a secret,Takes place behind closed doors.Why is it illicit?Why do they say taboo?We care about each other.What does it matter,What it is we do.You are my dirty secret,Forbidden secret of my life.I am not ashamed.Are yo...

Why is it all so confusing?Can't some one please explain?My peace has turned to chaos,My life so turned around.My heart is aching and I don't know why.What shall I do with all my questions?Who would I even have to ask?Should I stay, or shall I leave?Please tell me what to do.Who could I ask, who can I believe?Why am I consumed with all these doubts?Am I cared for, I am no longer sure.Am I worthy, that I never felt.Am I ev...

Just one word, one small word.Yet more powerful than all others.The word that you speak to me.To make me feel safe.The word that you whisper to me.While we make love.The word that you command me with.When you own me completely.This word that can bring me to my knees.Your slightest utterance will bring me down.Your voice and a word that can make me release.My very essence to you, for you.I love our word, just our word.You...

It is just past 6:00 A.M. I stretch and as you come into my mind, I smile. Last night was so much more than I ever expected. We talked and shared and loved, Until the wee hours of the morning. Your arm comes around me from behind and nestles between my breasts.Gently, you pull me against you. I lean my head back and sigh. You are everything to me now. I cannot believe how right, how comfortable this feels. I can feel your...