It wasn't a one off. Since this all started day after boxing day I've lost count the amount of times he has hit me in someway or another. Even him poking his finger right into the skin below my ear lobe really hurt. Throughout the years we have both been violent, I tend to throw things. I had a black eye a few months back and right now I have a bruise on my tummy where he grabbed my phone and slammed it on me. I am not a victim, well I don't feel like a domestic abuse victim but I suppose I am in a way a victim just now because o haven't done a thing wrong except confront him over what he has done. Its 7.55am here and before he left for work I got poked in the face for asking him why I couldn't find him on imigur yet he has 100's of followers..... I need a long hard think. I can't go on like this. I feel better when he is at work because I know he has no internet and can't do anything. I'm constantly on egg shells when he is home. I just can't believe I was so fucking stupid! He came home from work had dinner went upstairs and that was him! Never sat with us in the sitting room never took us anywhere never came when we were going anywhere. All that time he was either watching porn or talking to girl on here or twitter. That is a hard pill to swallow. He also has a gambling addiction that he admits to...what a catch! I know what I need to do but doing it is a different story altogether.
I know lush isn't for therapy I only found myself here through him. I actually thought that the females who he had been chatting to on here would have contacted me like I asked but they haven't. I want to go to counselling but he said no way and I'd be going alone.
Anyway thanks for the replies I'll leave now.
He is the one that has threatened to leave twice now. Packed his case. I love him I just want to be enough. He has told me point blank he won't give up porn or twitter and will always choose them over our 16 year relationship. I just want to be enough.
I live in a 3 bedroom midterrace house with DikDango, our 2 kids and white German shepherd. Home life isn't exactly great ATM.
He has closed his account here. He closed his twitter account too and set us both up with one with matching passwords. He knows what he done was wrong but he isn't giving me the time to move on. When things pop into my head I need to talk about it or else I explode. I'm already hardly eating or sleeping and I try to hide it cos he gets violent. I don't think I deserve to be hit when he is the one that has done wrong. I need time and lots of reassurance and he isn't giving me either.
Hi all.
Do you think a partner truly loves and wants to be with you if they have been on numerous sex forums behind you back for over a year? Not only that but can they be entirely happy when they spent most of that time on girls profiles and chatting etc? Why does an attached man who gets plenty of hot sex at home need to view single girls profiles/pics? I'm struggling to get over it. He says there was nothing to it and it was all bullshit (course he'd say that!). He admits he has a porn addiction which I'm OK with but the constant searching of "normal" girls profiles and pics is not on. I went through his browser history and it was mostly all from here "reading messages" "in private chats". How can I move on?
Don't know its been that long Mr Dango!!!!!!!