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It wasn't a one off. Since this all started day after boxing day I've lost count the amount of times he has hit me in someway or another. Even him poking his finger right into the skin below my ear lobe really hurt. Throughout the years we have both been violent, I tend to throw things. I had a black eye a few months back and right now I have a bruise on my tummy where he grabbed my phone and slammed it on me. I am not a victim, well I don't feel like a domestic abuse victim but I suppose I am in a way a victim just now because o haven't done a thing wrong except confront him over what he has done. Its 7.55am here and before he left for work I got poked in the face for asking him why I couldn't find him on imigur yet he has 100's of followers..... I need a long hard think. I can't go on like this. I feel better when he is at work because I know he has no internet and can't do anything. I'm constantly on egg shells when he is home. I just can't believe I was so fucking stupid! He came home from work had dinner went upstairs and that was him! Never sat with us in the sitting room never took us anywhere never came when we were going anywhere. All that time he was either watching porn or talking to girl on here or twitter. That is a hard pill to swallow. He also has a gambling addiction that he admits to...what a catch! I know what I need to do but doing it is a different story altogether.
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Quote by ChuckEPoo


I feel for you. This is such a difficult situation. Relationships get muddled with secret things. I know that. After two failed marriages I'm the last one to give advice. The first wife was a whore that was cheating on me. My second wife was an angel that I cheated on.

I know that when we love someone deeply that there is always the possibility of being hurt or hurting them. I have discovered that love and sex are two completely different things. Together they are incredible but the lust that attracts us can as easily divide us. I hope your love is enough to overcome, to forgive, to reconcile, and work together to salvage your relationship. He's got a problem but there are programs that help, if he wants help.

I hope and pray you will work things out.

Chuck


Thank you. I don't think he thinks he needs help. He says I'm the one that needs help cos I let it annoy me! Seriously I find that fucked up. Even bringing up Going for help or anything he goes mental. Time may help. We shall see. Its been since boxing day and still I go days without food if I get bad thoughts. Thanks though.
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I know lush isn't for therapy I only found myself here through him. I actually thought that the females who he had been chatting to on here would have contacted me like I asked but they haven't. I want to go to counselling but he said no way and I'd be going alone.

Anyway thanks for the replies I'll leave now.
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Your kids don't need to see him. He is poison, and his abuse will poison them, and you. Please go, like, right now, or when the kids are out of school, so you can take hem with you. If you have to wait until he is gone or asleep, be packed and ready to go. That is not love. I know it feels like love, but he is hurting you.


It's 5.20pm here. The kids are home from school and he got in from work a wee while ago. He didn't eat his dinner and has gone straight to bed because I didn't want to speak to him. He said I am killing him over a load of bullshit that meant nothing to him. Honestly I've nowhere else to go plus this is my village, my family are here. He came here to be with me and maybe time apart would help. Thing is though he said if he walks out the door he is never ever coming back. My daughter was broken hearted.
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But... he's just told you that you're worth less than porn to him!

Honey, time to cut and run. You always have to look out for number one first. That's you, by the way.


I know sad that's what hurts more than anything that I know he would rather have that than me. He even said if I didn't stop going on about it he was leaving, deleting and blocking my number and never seeing the kids again!!! They are 15 and 10. I don't know what to do because I cannot trust him to be good. I've stopped going to friends houses on a weekend because I cannot trust him.
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He is the one that has threatened to leave twice now. Packed his case. I love him I just want to be enough. He has told me point blank he won't give up porn or twitter and will always choose them over our 16 year relationship. I just want to be enough.
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I live in a 3 bedroom midterrace house with DikDango, our 2 kids and white German shepherd. Home life isn't exactly great ATM.
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He has closed his account here. He closed his twitter account too and set us both up with one with matching passwords. He knows what he done was wrong but he isn't giving me the time to move on. When things pop into my head I need to talk about it or else I explode. I'm already hardly eating or sleeping and I try to hide it cos he gets violent. I don't think I deserve to be hit when he is the one that has done wrong. I need time and lots of reassurance and he isn't giving me either.
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Hi all.

Do you think a partner truly loves and wants to be with you if they have been on numerous sex forums behind you back for over a year? Not only that but can they be entirely happy when they spent most of that time on girls profiles and chatting etc? Why does an attached man who gets plenty of hot sex at home need to view single girls profiles/pics? I'm struggling to get over it. He says there was nothing to it and it was all bullshit (course he'd say that!). He admits he has a porn addiction which I'm OK with but the constant searching of "normal" girls profiles and pics is not on. I went through his browser history and it was mostly all from here "reading messages" "in private chats". How can I move on?
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My OH and I are going through a terrible time just now because I found out he had a secret twitter account that was just mainly used for dirty pictures and perving/talking to other women. I then found him on here too and was terribly hurt by what I seen. He deleted his account and all messages before I could see them. I know by his browser history that he was messaging people on here and also having private chat sessions with a member called windywillows... Who has also deleted her account!! She doesn't seem to have had any posts and all that Google throws up is that DikDango (my OH) was her friend and posted on her wall. If anyone knows anything about DikDango then please message me because I need to know the truth. Its a complete betrayal whether cyber or not sad
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My girl had an affair with another woman and it hurt me just as much as it would if it was a guy, she states that it shouldn't matter to me because it's a woman.

Her reasoning was if I want to fuck other men that's ok, haha great but I'm not that way inclined

I say "well if you wanna fuck other women then that's fine with me but I will too"

The shit hit the fan after that lol

Talk about having your cake and eating it!


It wasn't an affair it was a one off. You weren't speaking to me for weeks. You cheated on me first when all I done was love you. After being on here I don't think I know you at all after 16 years!!
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