"I had lunch with Marge Friday,” Mildred said. “Did I tell you?" She patted her hair, which was short, curly, and gray.
"No. How's Marge?" Holly said. She lit a cigarette and raised her chin and blew the smoke upward.
"Oh, she's very well. She's been busy getting things ready for her eldest boy to go to college in September, or some such thing. I can't recall what she said—her exact words—but I believe it was something like that." Mildred picked up her drink and stirred it with her finger. She took a prim little sip, swallowed, and ran her tongue over her lips.
"You know, Mildred, you're a terrible source of gossip."
"Well, I must be losing my hearing, on the other hand, maybe I'm getting a bit senile. But for goodness sake! I am getting older—why, I'm nearly old enough to be your mother!"
"Oh, nonsense," Holly said. "You're neither senile or deaf. "You just don't listen, Mildred. You don't listen!" Nearly forty now, her face had softened, and she was very pretty. She has shoulder length honey blond hair, a good figure, and very nice legs. She was sipping her third margarita; her speech slightly slurred and was louder.
"Holly! You don't have to shout. I hear you perfectly." Mildred folded her hands in her lap and looked at the table. Condensation was puddling around the pitcher. "And I was paying attention, if that's what you mean by listening."
"You know, Marge's older boy does our lawn and our pool," Holly said. She stood and wiped up the water from the pitcher. She topped off her glass and sat. She crossed her legs and smoothed her skirt on her thigh. It was short, the length of a tennis skirt, a print of creamy white with red and pink roses scattered on it. "He's a very attractive kid."
"Oh, Holly, all teenaged boys are attractive at that age. It's the peak of their attractiveness, they'll never look better in their lives." She took a drink.
"He's at the peak of his reproductive powers, too," Holly said.
"Oh goodness, Holly, whatever are you thinking?"
"I'm thinking about Jack--that's Marge's older boy. He flirts with me."
"Oh, well I never," Mildred said, directing a wrinkled frown of disapproval at Holly. "He’s barely eighteen.” Her face relaxed and the question formed in her eyes. “What does he say? You probably misinterpreted it."
Holly laughed, took a drink, said, “I know when a man’s flirting with me.”
“Well then, what did he say?”
“Last week while he cut the grass I was lying by the pool—I had been swimming earlier and the sunshine was so delicious I wanted to relax and enjoy it. He finished the lawn and came to check the pool. He tests the water, you know?” She took a drag on her cigarette and stubbed it out in the ashtray.
“Yes? Go on.”
“Well, I was putting sunblock on my arms and he offered to help. He said, ‘I could do your back, Mrs. Gordon,’ quite innocently.”
“Goodness! What did you say?” Mildred said. She sat forward, leaning closer to Holly.
“Well, I thought, he’s been working for us for, what? Two years now, and he’s like one of the family, really, and I didn’t think anything of it.”
“You didn’t let him, of course.” Mildred sat back, picked up her drink, sipped it and held it.
“I did. That’s when he started saying things that were definitely flirtatious.”
Mildred drained her glass, swallowed. “Goodness. What were you thinking?”
“He said, ‘I used to do this for my mother, but she thinks I’m too old now.’” Holly paused for a drink. “Then he said, ‘Your skin is really soft and smooth.’”
“And you’re lying there letting him rub lotion on your back? What were you thinking?”
“To tell you the truth, Mildred, I was thinking how gentle his touch was. I hardly noticed when he undid my top and—”
Mildred’s eyes flew wide. “What?”
“He undid my top. He didn’t ask permission, Mildred, he just popped it open!”
“Holly!”
“What could I do? He ran his hands up and down my back, and when he reached my lower back he lingered, ever so lightly.” She shook a cigarette out of the pack, and held it with two fingers, but she didn’t light it. “He said I have a great body.”
“Hmph! For a woman old enough to be his mother. Oh, now I’m thinking about Marge. What would she think of you letting her son become familiar with you?”
“I have no idea what she would think. I don’t know her very well,” Holly said, lighting her cigarette with a red plastic lighter. She placed the lighter on the table next to the cigarette pack.
“Well, I can tell you what I would think—as a mother. If he were my son . . .” she let her thought unsaid.
Holly was remembering something now, and deciding to what extent she could share it with Mildred, who seemed unusually judgmental that afternoon. She gazed out to the woods behind the property and smoked her cigarette. She wouldn’t tell Mildred that she had unfastened her swim suit top, or that she shifted her body slightly to allow the boy to see most of a breast. That’s when he offered to do her back.
She exhaled and watch the cloud of smoke rise and dissolve. She remembered the way she had felt when Jack began putting lotion on her legs. He had rested a hand on the back of her thigh, only a finger’s width from— No, she definitely wouldn’t mention that. Or anything beyond it . . .
“The boy’s been around, Mildred, he’s obviously had some experience. I doubt he’s a virgin.” She rolled the tip of her cigarette in the ashtray, recalling the effect of the boy’s boldness on her. The consequences. Memory raised the heat and humidity between her legs.
“Children today are over stimulated! They’re hyper sexual by adolescence!” Mildred spoke crossly and looked off in the distance. “My last year of teaching, goodness, you wouldn’t believe what went on among my students.”
They didn’t speak for a few minutes. Each seemed lost in her own thoughts. Then Mildred leaned toward Holly, her face as serious as if speaking to a sick child, and said, “For your own sake, Holly, please don’t encourage that boy.”
Holly didn’t say anything; she extinguished her cigarette.
“The laws of physics are certain,” Mildred said. Holly looked at her curiously. Mildred sat back in her chair and studied the backs of her hands. “After teaching science for many years I began to see how they can be applied to our actions as well. When actions begin they continue going in that direction, just as a physical body will remain in motion until something stops it or forces it to change direction."
“I’m sure I don’t follow you,” Holly said.
“What’s the boy’s name, Jack?”
“Uh-huh.”
“Jack will continue. He’ll go further if you encourage him. Perhaps I should say, if you don’t discourage him.
“You think so?”
“Why of course. He’s hardly in control of his raging hormones. It’s his age. It’ll be up to you to exert control.”
“You’re right, Mildred. Of course you are,” Holly said. She feigned sincerity while thinking that Mildred was too old-fashioned to be expected to approve of her dallying with a teenager.
Mildred spoke as though she could read Holly’s thoughts. “I know how powerful fantasies can be, my dear, how exciting and pleasurable they can be, but we don’t have to act on them. Some are better left as fantasy.”
“I agree.”
Mildred appeared pleased. “Even a blind sow finds a truffle now and then,” she said, nodding as though she agreed with herself. “I wouldn’t want to see you hurt, Holly.”
“Oh, I know, Mildred. I know you have my interest at heart. I do appreciate it.” She reached over and patted Mildred’s hand. “I ought to be going now. Don’t worry about me.” She got up, drained the last of her margarita, which was no longer cool, and gathered her cigarettes and lighter and put them in her handbag. “The margaritas were delicious. You have to tell me how you make them.”
“Oh, I’ll be glad to, dear. I’m glad you enjoyed them.”
Mildred walked Holly to her car in the oval at the front of the house. They hugged and said goodbye.
Holly’s BMW Z3 M Roadster roared to life. With a final smile and wave to Mildred she got under way. On the road the purr of the engine seemed to turn up the volume of her thoughts about Jack. Tomorrow was Monday. He'll come to do his work in the yard.
She knew she was a little drunk and drove slowly, trying to focus on driving carefully. The one-mile drive gave her time to consider what she would do tomorrow. She put Marge out of her mind. Then she put Mildred’s caution out of it, and conjured an image of Jack in his work shoes and those baggy, long-legged swim trunks he wore, his dark curls glistening in the sun, his muscles defined in the cotton T-shirt he shed on hot days. She tried to recall the feel of his lithe young body next to her skin . . . the smell of chlorine on him after a swim.
She touched the wet of her panties with her right hand and steered with her left. She felt a buzz of reckless excitement touching herself in the open roadster. If she were on a highway she could be observed by truck drivers looking into the car. Yes, she had done it. She knew they saw; some honked as she passed.
She imagined Jack up there in the cab of a big semi, grinning down on her as she matched his speed to stay alongside his open window, rolled up her skirt, pulled her panties aside, showing him how she touched herself, letting him watch, while the roar of the diesel blended with the purr of the BMW six and the howling wind whipped her hair into a golden tangle.
The odor of her arousal floated to her nostrils in an updraft of warm air in the car as she parked in her driveway. The rear of her husband’s Audi Q7 was visible in the open garage.
He opened the front door and waved. As she approached she said, “Did you win, Albert?”
He smiled happily. “I did. Two strokes under par. I was on fire, nearly had a hole in one, a tap-in only six inches from the cup on the seventh hole.”
“That’s wonderful, dear. We can celebrate by going out to dinner. Would you like to try that new Italian restaurant in town?”
“Sounds like a plan.”
“Okay.