From the Journal of Olivia Delacroix - Fourth entry.
The last few days feel like a fever dream born of delirium. Emma claims that I was gone for a span of a week and I have no reason to doubt her and yet, I find it hard to fathom that so many days passed. I can only assume that my wits were sufficiently scrambled by my ordeal.
Of what I do recall, the discovery of the swarm upon the cliff’s face, the overwhelming ecstasy that was precipitated by the butterflies’ touch, and the onset of the fierce tempest that followed, during which I took shelter within a crack , I related to the best of my abilities. As for what took place thereafter, I feigned amnesia, a claim that was not entirely deception.
Emma was much more forthcoming, sharing the shock of trepidation caused by my disappearance and the loss of what little slice of civilization we had salvaged in the aftermath the catastrophic event that had left us stranded upon in this strange otherworldly place. In a peculiar way, I had become accustomed to our crude little camp. Now, even that was gone. That I was able to recoup this record was nothing short of a miracle. Beyond that, only the Lieutenant’s saber and pistol and McCrossen’s sketchbook remain to us. All other supplies and clothing, meager though they were, are lost to us. We, or rather, my companions, have done their best to rebuild further inland, equidistant betwixt the beach and the cliffs where I was overcome by the touch of the Lepidoptera.
Emma also imparted their experiences with “going cold turkey” – M. McCrossen’s colorful turn of phrase. The experience was less than pleasurable and the experiment had been abandoned after several days as they came to the realization that it resulted in muddled wits, extreme irritability and, in M. Grant’s case, physical disability. In other words, their efforts to rescue me as well as rebuild were, essentially, hindered rather than aided by the absence of the fruit.
A few other things of import that I have gather, chief among them being Grant’s discovery of the cave up the beach. He and Gavin accompanied me their earlier this afternoon so that I could inspect the etching they’d discovered. As I had already surmised, they matched the style of the ones I had unearthed, although I have yet to share that, as well as so many other details of my time spent astray.
Livie
July, 1867.
(A week prior…)
I was stirred from my post orgasmic stupor by a fearsome boom overhead and the splash of raindrops on my exposed flesh. The sky overhead had darkened dramatically and clouds roiled as rain pelted down from the heavens. As I stared heavenward, thunder cracked once more as a jagged bolt of lightning lit the horizon. A storm, and by the looks of it, I’d be wise to seek what cover I could find. The sight of the cliff drew me. If nothing else, I could shelter in its shadow. Unsurprisingly, the butterflies had fled while I lay senseless. Had I a way of deducing their path, I would have tried to follow.
Luck, however, had not completely abandoned me. A bolt of electricity illuminated the outline of a fissure, one that had been hidden from me beneath the multitude of insects earlier, or so I surmised. Naturally, I made my way towards it, seeking a more substantial shelter then merely curling up against the craggy wall.
It was a tight fit, but one I was able to navigate with minor abrasions upon one hip. Thunder tore the sky asunder once more as I felt my way within, thankful that I was not completely blind – a faintly luminous lichen shed enough light to reveal the secrets of the passage. Thick vines covered the walls like fingers. The blooms that covered the cliffs had their origin within, or so I surmised. Curious and undaunted by the unknown, I felt my way along the vine covered wall and explored deeper with the crack, my eyes slowly adapting to the dim light shed by the softly glowing fungus, fingers trailing along the smooth, leafless vines of the lustberry plant. I must have travelled thirty meters or so before the passage widened. Giving me enough room to pause upon my knees and access my situation. Perhaps it would be best if called a halt to my adventure and rode out the storm within this recess. Once the storm had passed, I could make my way back to camp and perhaps convince the others to explore further. My mind made up, I made myself as comfortable as I could, leaning against the uneven stone, eyes wandering about my temporary sanctuary until they came to rest upon something amazing – a crude design carved into the rock below an undecipherable script. Intrigued, I moved closer, examining the unfamiliar characters with my fingertips, my heart beating in my chest with excitement. It could only mean one thing. We were not alone.
One of the reasons that the professor had hired me as his aide was my skill with languages. To discover a new language was exhilarating. To be unable to decipher it, however, proved frustrating. Eventually, I gave up. As the storm still raged outside, and I was filled with anxious energy, I decided to continue on a ways and explore further. Perhaps the key to understanding lay within. As long as the passage didn’t divert, I was in no danger our losing my way, I reasoned. And so, guided by the faint glowing of the lichen and moss, I continued a ways, my fingers trailing along the berry vines, using them to assure I had a connection to the outside, my steps always careful, especially as I realized that the way before me had begun to slope downward.
If I was to guess, I would say I continued for perhaps a quarter of an hour before I came upon a chamber of sorts. It was about the size of my cabin upon the dove, perhaps slightly larger. The pathway continued on, opposite me. That, however, was not what drew my eye at first. It was the large bloom that grew upon one wall, a bloom into which the vines disappeared beneath and didn’t emerge. Obviously, this was the source of their growth.
The flower resembled a chrysanthemum the same hue as the berries that we fed upon. Stepping forward, I examined it carefully, inhaling softly, its subtle fragrance pleasant to the senses but not overwhelming. Unsurprisingly, my stomach growled reminding me that it had been ages since my last meal. It was then that I realized that, not only had the vines within the crevice held any fruit, but neither did their flowering heart.
“Perhaps its petals would ease my pangs,” I reasoned out loud. It was not unheard of, certainly. With a shrug, I caressed one of the petals, prepared to tear a small section of it from its host, dismissing the idea that it might be poisonous. After all, I was fairly certain it was the origin of the berries upon which we’d been supping since we’d arrived. It couldn’t possibly be toxic. I paused, realizing that the surface was tacky and that my fingertips clung to them. Curious, I withdrew my hand and carefully extended my tongue to give my digit an exploratory taste. It was not unlike honey. Dismissing my hunger for the moment, I searched carefully for a source, finding it easily at the center of the floret, a small well that could only be described as nectar, a much more appetizing meal than what I had planned. Reaching into the heart of the flower, I scooped up a healthy dollop with a pair of fingers and fed myself of the sweet sticky dew until I was sated.
Belly full, I once again, reclined, feeling suddenly drowsy. Idly, my fingers found their ways between my thighs, and parted my own petals, mindful of symmetry, and began to tease myself, fingers still sticky with the blooms issue…
Only later, when reason penetrated my cranium once more, did I deduce that the nectar affected me like a potent drug. I recalled earth shattering orgasms, my cries echoing within the small cavern, coming one after another until the sensations of pleasure morphed into pain which, in turn, melted once more into pleasure becoming a never ending loop of primal sensation. I think that, had I not passed out, exhausted, I would have masturbated until my dying breath.
And my slumbers… my dreams were strange, delving into madness, sensual hallucinations competing with psychedelic delusions fighting for dominance within my psyche. Much of it, blessedly, I didn’t recall upon awaking once more. What I did was disquieting enough; a dream of a dark figure rising from the eye of a glowing pool, limbs spider like and nimble, orbs the color of emeralds lit from within, the feel of its touch tingling through me as it picked at my thoughts, plucking memories from me like a child stealing from a candy dish.
oOo
Eventually, I awoke, determined to return the way I had come, sure that the storm must certainly have passed. And yet, after a moments pause, instead, I fed once more, swallowing the sweet honey like a starving waif before continuing further even when the way became dark and I was forced to slow to a crawl in a pitch darker than the blackest night. How long I stumbled about in the dark like that, I have no real recollection, only that I heaved a mighty sigh of relief when light began to seep into the passage ahead. Whispering a heartfelt prayer, I hurried onward, the light growing stronger with each uneven step, until I was bathed in strange light and standing, calf deep, in a glowing pool, one that resembled the visions I’d had earlier, engrossed as the dark shape of my fevered dreams rose silently from the center, rippling the surface as I held witness.