Destiny stood under the showerhead with her fingers combing through her wet, curly hair. The dark-skinned woman was taking a shower after a hard day at school. 

She'd been dealing with a lot because of the pressures her degree was putting on her shoulder. The woman was currently pursuing a career in public relations with a minor in public policy. 

It was a stepping stone to graduate school and a life working for the state if not the county in her hometown. This left her busy all day and struggling to deal with her feelings for Jake all night. 

Her left hand moved out of her hair and down to her chest. Her wet hand touched her boob briefly making her pant. They were sore from her time of the month and she was all wound up. 

Just her fingers brushing against her bare body made her excitable. It was something that made her feel very shameful. Sex education wasn't taught to her at home, and all she knew came from the summer course she took. This left her in the unknown. 

And being in the unknown was terrifying. A little gasp left her mouth as she suddenly felt something enter her vagina. With water falling down her face and stinging her eyes, she looked down to see that a finger had entered her. Her finger. 

Without realizing, she had drifted off into some sort of fog crafted by her growing lust. Destiny had been pent up from so long all the stress in her life. 

Plus, her feelings towards Jake made her regret any time she got herself off. Because it was always images and daydreams of him nowadays. 

Which she felt naughty for doing, even though it was almost always unconsciously. The dark-skinned woman would be lying down and find herself thinking about him. 

It then led to her fingering herself, the thought of his body pressing down on her. With the man filling her untouched vagina with his uncircumcised cock that bulged with veins. 

Destiny didn't know if this was actually how his penis was. She just imagined that it was like this, he just seemed like the type. Even if Jake wasn't she'd still let him have sex with her. 

‘You're masturbating to a man who had a wife while you were in middle school,’ Her brain suddenly interjected. ‘Aren't you ashamed of yourself?’

Her fingertip brushed against her inner skin, and she felt her stomach lurch. Her legs wobbled, and she came almost instantly. The woman had little control of her orgasms when she was like this. 

She tended to cum as soon as possible from the littlest finger flick. Water dripped down her wet chest and into her pussy, making a mess. 

Still, she was unable to stop herself from frowning. It wasn't enough, but she was willing to use it as a substitute until she got the real thing. 

She sniffled and removed her hand to put it under the water more directly. The cum was rinsed off but not her shame. She turned the water off, hoping she felt better in the morning. 

“You're way too young for him.”

“You just got out of high school. Slow down.” 

“You're just a kid compared to him.” 

“You need to separate yourself from this guy.” 

With no one to talk to, she went onto a popular forum site for relationship advice. And Destiny instantly regretted it when she saw all the comments flooding in. 

At first, they were helpful by saying she needed to stop panicking and focus on her schooling. But then people started to call her all types of bitches and hoes because she fell in love with an older man. 

They called her a gold digger who was seeking some lonely guy to pay her tuition. She hated to admit it but seeing random people say those awful things made her cry. 

It stung to know that someone could think of her so poorly. When she went to get taken home by Jake, she felt sick. 

While she was sitting in his car, she thought everything over with a heavy chest. The month of rides was fairly normal and went by faster than Destiny thought they would. 

She was picked up by Jake, they'd do minimal chit chat and then they'd arrive home. The dark-skinned woman felt hurt by this, but she didn't say anything. 

After all, any feelings she had were always going to be one-sided. Destiny knew this from the very beginning. And it wasn't like the older man could read her innermost thoughts to know how she saw him. Jake believed she was just his roommate who got along with him well. 

So, she played it cool and tried not to let her disappointment show visibly to the man. He was acting like a good friend by taking her to and from class. Destiny didn't want to risk losing that tiny, blossoming connection. She'd become some sort of addict who desperately needed her fix. 

It was hard to process and after a few weeks of it, she found herself in his car with a glum expression. Her heart felt so incredibly heavy with all the emotions running around her head. Destiny didn't mean to show this but like always her body acted without her noticing. 

Jake looked over and cleared his throat. “Hey.” He had a worried tone seeing how upset she was. “What's wrong?”

Destiny opened her mouth but quickly closed it. It was better to stay silent. She felt like she was about to pass out and throw up. Her mind was going crazy with the desires she had for the man. 

The night before she had dreamed of them being together. They would be in her bedroom when all the other residents in the house were gone. 

Jake would be in control with a dark look in his eyes that could only be lust. He moved his hands under her school blouse and lifted it upward. 

His fingers played with her puffy nipples and twisted them until she was practically hyperventilating. 

Those weren't something she could simply bury and get rid of permanently. They were becoming more frequent, and she squeezed her legs together anxiously. 

She wasn't getting wet, but she was starting to sweat at the thought. Destiny watched Jake observing her, feeling her nerves quadruple in size. 

She gulped and realized just how dry her throat felt. Which led to her thinking about Jake's cock and cum soothing its ache.

Shame flooded into her delusional fantasies and her breathing stopped momentarily. These thoughts were inappropriate and disturbing. 

‘No,’ Destiny thought to herself as she found herself seething angrily. The woman's hands scrunched up against her skirt and balled into fists. ‘Thinking of him like this is wrong. He's just my roommate. Stop it. Please, just stop it.’ 

This was the wrong choice, of course. Her strange behavior was more than obvious to the man as they sat side by side.

And her sudden scowl made everything worse. An awkward tension began to grow between them which made her want to cry. 

She was such an immature little train wreck. The older man stopped the car and leaned over. Her chest tightened as he loomed over her with those dark eyes. 

In a way that made her feel a tiny bit scared, even though she knew he was safe. They sat there looking into each other's eyes and breathing into each other's faces. 

The car's engine ran loudly, filling their ears. It felt incredibly uncomfortable for the younger woman. It made her want to cry. 

Destiny knew that her actions had led her down this path, but she still feared what would be the outcome. She swallowed thickly and looked at the bottom of the car. It was better to focus on the candy wrapper at her feet instead of Jake, for now. 

Still, she knew that needed to buck up and act like an adult. Before things came to a point that she couldn't fix them. 

“I have feelings for you.” Destiny spoke slower than she intended, each word being forced out of her mouth rather painfully. 

He stared at her before closing his eyes and rubbing at his forehead. Sweat was on his hand when he moved it back down and he sighed. 

“I should have known that was the issue.” Jake spoke in a soft tone that she had never heard him utter before. 

“You aren't angry with me?” She was breathing heavier as she asked this question. There was a small ball of hope that was growing in the pit of her stomach. 

He shook his head and made a move to grab her thigh. Destiny flinched away without much thought and he gave her a calm look. “I wouldn't be mad at you over something like a crush. Besides, I always knew.” 

“You knew?” Her eyes and voice were weak as her entire world shattered. 

He knew. He had known that she had feelings for him the entire time. “How long have you known?” 

“After the third time I picked you up, I became suspicious. You wouldn't like me in the eye and would isolate yourself from me. You've stopped hanging out with me. But I could tell that it wasn't because you were upset with me. It was like you had a crush on me with the blushing and stuttering.” Jake confessed to her with that same relaxing volume. 

Destiny sat there, unsure of what to say. She was shocked that the man knew, but also she hadn't been that discrete. She'd been a blushing, wet mess that first car ride. 

And then the following rides she had to admit she over-corrected by acting like a robot. At the apartment, she would avoid being alone with him so she wouldn't do anything stupid. 

Her biggest fear was showing her true desires and making the man hate her. Which now seemed silly, as he knew the entire time, and nothing she could have done would have changed that. She felt shocked by everything and barely kept her mouth closed. 

“I'm guessing everything's going to change now,” Destiny said after an eternity of being quiet and trembling. 

Jake shook his head with a grin. “I won't stop driving you. We have a lot to talk about, but nothing is going to change unless you want it to.” He went to grab her hand and this time Destiny let him. 

It felt so comforting. “You don't find it weird that I have feelings for you with the age gap.” She stuttered, crying. 

“I did at first. I didn't understand why someone like you wanted to date a guy like me. I'm a divorcee who lives with roommates, for God's sake. But then I figured that a crush is a crush and doesn't mean a long-term relationship.” He told her in a way that didn't make her feel low or stupid. 

“Do you feel the same for me?” She asked timidly. 

He thought for a moment. “I would like to become closer as friends before we embark on your crush. I don't know you that well if I'm honest and I want to. I want to know your favorite colors, what movies you like, anything.” 

Destiny was wide-eyed at hearing this, and she felt her heart start to quicken. This was going better than she could have ever imagined. 

Sure, they weren't all over each other making out in the back of his car. But the man wasn't throwing her out of his car calling her a delusional brat. 

No. The older man was talking as if he was willing to give her a chance. She squeezed his hand and smiled. It felt good. It felt more than good. She felt amazing. Jake was an even better guy than she could have even imagined. 

“So, what do you say? I know this is a lot for you, but I want to get close to another. We won't be a couple just yet. It's way too soon to jump into something serious.” Jake's offer was tempting to the younger woman, who hurried to reply. 

“I'd like to get to know you. I want to explore a relationship, but I get what you're saying about needing to take our time. You have more experience than me and know better.” She said with honesty. 

The man was married before and she had never dated anyone in her life. All of this was going to be a lot and unlike Jake, Destiny knew things would change. 

Her parents would lose it if they knew she was even entertaining an older guy. And he had an ex-wife she was sure wouldn't be too happy either. 

There were going to be a ton of hurdles she would have to overcome. But she wasn't as terrified anymore now that she knew Jake was on her side. 

He showed empathy by listening to her and taking things at a slow pace. This gave her a kick in the ass to see things through.