The Lying Continues

Like an onion peeling the layers;

Your lies continue and are found.

I ask myself again; how can I trust you?

Or should I; that is the big question.

Every day, I find something else;

Every day, another event not shared but done.

Can I, will I forgive you this time?

I fear the end is near; for you tire me.

I can't live like this; not knowing who to believe.

I can not live like this not having any help from anyone.

No friend to count on, no friend as ally only foe.

I am your stupid little dummy,

Your dumb stupid whore; for I really do not know what is going on.

You use me, say what you want to me.

And I believe you again and again.

For why and how could you lie to me?

"No not him," I say and defend your honor.

"No, he would not lie to me, not him."

"He loves me with all his heart; more than life itself,"

"He would never lie to me."

Then again as yesterday, I find proof;

Proof that yet once again you have lied to me.

But I need you, I love you;

I am a glutton for punishment, your punishment.

Your encouraging words telling me again that you love me.

You love me more than life itself; you love me more than you love yourself.

So again I say yes, yes to forgiveness and I do forgive yet again once more.

For I love you my Darling;

I love you more and more each passing day.

I love you more than life itself.

Your powerful love that excites me;

And thrills me from within.

I stay awake at night.

Watching you; wondering what you are thinking; what you are dreaming.

Wondering what lies you are hatching.

Is it a her; is it a him or both?

I ask myself "What did I do wrong?"

"Where did I fail you?"

Was I not the whore, the slut you wanted?

So again I say yes to forgiveness and your lies continue.

For I can not live without you.

Even if I could, I would not want to.

Your submissive slut; your submissive whore.

When do I get to dominate?