Growing up, I´ve always had a very close bond with my father and received lots of hugs and kisses. I loved him with all my heart, and that hadn´t changed in any way, even though I've gotten older. I´ve always snuggled close to him when we sat together watching TV and being in his warm and reassuring company. I´ve done that for as long as I can remember.
Now that I was eighteen, it was unfortunately not acceptable to be close to your father in the same way as it had been before. I can't possibly be the only one who had experienced this. My mom wasn´t too keen with me being so close to my father, even to this day, but I didn´t care. She must not spoil the best moments for me.
But still, it had affected the way I see my father. My mind was swirling, thinking I was getting too old for this. It might have seemed strange that a girl my age was still lying and snuggling with her father on the sofa. But I loved it so much; it was almost a daily routine throughout my childhood. Why should it change just because I got older? My father's cuddling was the highlight of my day, especially if it had been a long day.
I´ve tried very discreetly to ask some of my friends in my class what their relationship with their father was like. I was pretty surprised when most of them said they did not have a close bond with their father compared to me.
Because of my mother's paranoid thinking, but also the talk of my girlfriends, I somehow became more aware of my father's touches when I lay with him on the couch. It was not something I had noticed before, but somehow, I now did.
This time, when I registered his caress on my legs, thighs, or waist, I became aware of the itchy effect between my legs for the first time, which ended in an unknown pleasure that I had not felt before, at least not with him. I did recognize the feeling; I was, after all, eighteen years old.
When I thought about it more, his gentle caresses on the top of my thighs were starting to feel like that, too. Several times, I noticed that my nipples began to harden and push through the fabric when he touched me. I had to wear a bra to hide my body's reaction from my mother.
Unfortunately, there was one time when I forgot the bra. My mom was not pleased when she discovered my stiff pads through my skimpy top. She scolded Dad, which ended in a more significant argument, which I got away with cheaply, thank God. Instead, I was taught I was getting too old for this sort of thing.
I shook my head at her, shrugged, and went to bed with the idea that she was worried I would take Dad away from her. I could also do that quickly because my father had said long ago that he would go through fire and water for me and even opt out of Mother if necessary. I had also made the silly comment that she could just come and take over my position, but no, she definitely wouldn't! So, it was her fault that I was sitting with my father.
Because my mother pushed my thoughts into motion, I couldn't stop thinking I was just Daddy's little girl. Just as my mother pointed out, I was too old to be cuddled by my father. Even my girlfriends confirmed this, so it must have meant that our close relationship was not just an ordinary father-daughter relationship. No. It had to be more than that!
The summer season had begun, and on that occasion, I had found my short skirts, which I wore often. They were pretty comfortable to walk in, and they made me feel mega-sexy. It must have been the summer hormones kicking in and playing tricks on me. Lately, I had been extra naughty, teasing my father whenever I could. The classic one was that I would bend over when I ´accidentally´ dropped something. I did it both with the back so that he could view my small rear and the front to show off the cavalcade of my breasts.
Another thing I also did was let his big hands do whatever they wanted when I was sitting on the couch with him. It was always exciting when he stroked my smooth skin. I sensed every movement, not knowing which direction they would take, and closed my eyes when he hit certain parts of my body. Occasionally, I would get chills, and we would giggle when it happened. Dad had started giving me chills more often and had gradually figured out how to provoke them.
He started by caressing my shoulder, slowly moving down my arm and out to my fingertips. Afterward, he reversed his direction, crossing the top of my ribcage to the other shoulder. For some reason, it made me shiver all over when he made his way across my ribcage.
One evening, when my mother happened to walk out of the living room, leaving me and father alone together, I felt his loving touches venture down from my waist and towards the hem of my skirt. It gave me a nerve-wracking rush when I felt his hand run up my dress and follow my thigh extra closely.
I unconsciously bit my lip, closed my eyes, and took an extra deep breath. I opened my eyes again and stared blankly at the television without registering what was happening behind the screen. I waited patiently, sensing every sensation from his rough but warm palm. He came up further, and I swore he reached to the hem of my panty with his fingertips. It was the first time he had moved that far, and I begged and pleaded for his fingers to dig under the edge.
I was afraid to move if a simple movement from me made him want to withdraw his hand hastily. I certainly wouldn't have that. I loved every touch, every caress, and every tingling part of my body that was affected by his touch.
It was too good to be accurate and seemed like a dream come true. I floated on a pink cloud as the soothing spring that twisted like wild tentacles through my body caused all my weight to disappear. I could feel my heartbeat beating harder and faster while my breathing became so heavy that I had to breathe through my mouth.
Muffled sounds of pleasure found their way, and I had to keep my mouth shut not to attract unnecessary attention. A gentle warmth flowed between my legs as he pulled the panty hem down and dug his index finger into the underside.
An excited hiss settled hard in my chest and disappeared like dew before the sun at zero point five; at the exact moment, Father heard my mother enter the living room from the kitchen. He quickly drew his hand to him and hastily and sloppily straightened my skirt to hide the secret antics he had been up to.
Dad subsequently placed his resting hand on my hip again and was excellent at holding the mask with a stiff straight-faced.
On the other hand, I was very puffy with flared red cheeks and shortness of breath. I snuggled extra close to Dad's large chest to hide the revealing features from my mother. She had a cup of tea and some biscuits with her, which she kindly offered us a few when she sat down.
“No thanks,” Dad replied in a tone that resonated with both of us. I looked up at him admiringly, smiling widely, knowing that if he had said yes, we would have had to move apart, which he certainly didn't want to do. It brought a blooming recognition within me that Father wanted me, and he tried to keep me close to him. I fulfilled his wish and hugged my lovely big father-teddy-bear even closer.
A few days later, I drew on paper at my desk. Father calmly knocked on the door, entered cautiously, and explained that Mother had just gone to Grandma's and wouldn't be home again until a few hours later. This led to his suggestion that we could see a movie together in the living room.
"Yes, I would really love that!" was my reply. I was overjoyed when he asked because I always took the initiative when the opportunity arose to lie and cuddle with him. But finally, I experienced the opposite and immediately seized the golden opportunity.
Dad nodded with a smile and disappeared downstairs to get the film ready. Meanwhile, I rushed with full speed towards the large IKEA wardrobe, where I pulled out one of my many skirts to replace my long grey sweatpants. I chose a summer yellow color and was about to put it on when an even naughtier thought crossed my mind.
Biting my lips together, I looked down at myself and the violet-colored panties that hugged my eighteen-year-old vulva. I rocked my hips from side to side and felt a mild breeze of playful rush hit me before I deftly took off my panties. Oh god. I felt SO bad at that moment. Almost naked, I danced and swayed my hips, checking out my slender forms. I looked over my shoulder at my narrow, almost tasteless butt. It had a dull and linear shape that I was unhappy with.
After sighing at my body, I put on the extra short skirt I had found. Once again, I looked in the mirror and tried to summon just a little bit of my self-esteem back again. It dressed me very well, accentuating my hip bones so the flat rear was not so conspicuous.