The big question
Ever since Ava was young, she’d felt an emptiness inside her. It exhibited itself in an unconscious desire to please men, something that that went well beyond being a good and responsive sexual partner. That summer she was reading a magazine when she found an article that stopped her in her tracks. About Alpha submissives.
“An Alpha submissive female can only be attracted to a strong, powerful, confident Alpha Male. Weak, meek men simply do not attract them. Submissive men often misinterpret the public Alpha Female persona as being the same as the Alpha submissive females’ sexual persona. Men misread these women, wanting them to dominate them sexually in private, often creating a case of complete incompatibility. It is only a strong decisive, confident man that truly arouses the feminine senses of an Alpha submissive, a woman who can only submit to a man she feels is even more confident and dominant than her own public persona.”
She realised, with a bit of a shock, it meant that her personality, her desires, were those of an Alpha Submissive slave. This rang true. That was what she most liked most in life, what really turned her on.
Before Lorenzo, she had only dated what she’d regarded as ‘weak’ men. She knew that, once she started to feel any contempt for a man’s weakness, it meant their relationship was doomed fairly quickly. Quite a few of her early suitors had lasted barely a month.
She’d realised she was very different too. Even though she’d always thought of herself as shy, she still gained a reputation all through college as a tough debater in lectures, a bit of a female ‘hard nut’. But she recognised her public persona, what she wanted people to see of her, was very much at odds with how she really felt inside. Ava was sure that’s why her city finance firm had jumped and made her an offer to join them, before she even passed her exams. It was because she’d come across as so assured at their finance panel, so confident in everything she said at the rigorous interview.
Ava thought about all the years she and Lorenzo had been together. It was his strong will and personality that had attracted him to her in the first place. Yet what he regularly asked of her, in submitting to his sexual will, was not much different from the fantasies she’d formed in her head in her teens, when she’d first started masturbating. All those guilty, half-crazy fantasies of being controlled, being instructed what to do by some big hunk. In reality she’d hardly changed in her mind at all from when she was young. She had just been very lucky in meeting someone at college who could fulfil all her life-long young fantasies, here in the adult world.
After years of debating her teenage fantasies round and round in her head, she came to realise that what Lorenzo offered was way more than what he did to her, it was what his attitude to her really represented. The fact that, as a strong-minded man, he not only made her feel carnally complete, but both stable and secure too.
But it still came as a huge surprise to Ava when, four years after they’d met as undergraduates, and taken part in their very first master and slave game, Lorenzo decided to propose to her.
That sunny day they’d planned to meet for lunch at a small Italian café, overlooking the river. Lorenzo was in blue shorts and a tight white polo shirt, showing off his muscular chest. Ava wore her favourite lemon yellow silk dress with a tight push up bra, delicate jade necklace and, as she usually did in Summer, no panties.
Lorenzo had been charming, regaling her about his friend Bill’s winter hiking trip, which had gone spectacularly wrong when he slid down an icy slate scree slope and broke his wrist.
Ava couldn’t quite work out why he was telling her this slightly odd story here, in summertime, when snow was the last thing on anyone’s mind. But she laughed when he said it had worked out fine in the end, with his friend ending up meeting his future bride, a paramedic in the waiting ambulance at the bottom of the mountain.
Ava smiled, indulging his tale, knowing that when they got back later, he would likely be wanting to strip her out of her dress and do obscene things to her naked body. She shivered slightly with the thought, experiencing a sudden body flush in heady anticipation.
Ava was about to tell him how one of her friends met their own partner when the reason for telling his tale suddenly became clear.
Lorenzo suddenly bent down, allegedly to pick up a fallen napkin, emerging from beneath the table with a small navy velvet box.
He got out of his chair, knelt down beside her at the table, opening the sleek rectangular box lined with silk. Inside was a four-carat diamond ring, glistening in the summer sun. Ava opened her mouth wide, unable to speak, her green eyes wide in astonishment.
“Ava Jefferson, would you do the honour of marrying me?”
At first, Ava couldn’t take it in, the words alien and unexpected. Then she realised why he had told her the strange tale first. It was nerves, trying to steel himself to ask her to be his bride.
Ava had been completely taken by surprise, but when she looked at him and gazed into his eyes, she knew immediately. This would cement their future and all their submissive and dominant master and slave lives and sexual activity together.
The other diners turned to watch at the commotion as Ava leapt up, pulling Lorenzo to his feet and then leaping at him like a high jumper, almost toppling him back to the floor as she wrapped her powerful thighs tightly around his torso.
He struggled to keep hold of her, caught in her strong thigh embrace, holding her aloft by her beautiful naked buns and desperately trying to make sure the rest of the diners didn’t see that Ava had no panties on underneath. Her breasts jiggling seductively under his square jaw, Ava smothered Lorenzo’s rugged face in soft kisses.
“Do I take that as a yes, then?” Lorenzo managed to ask.
“Yes, yes of course I will, Lorenzo! I thought you’d never ask.”
They cuddled firmly for a minute, oblivious of the other diners then sat back at the dining table. Ava’s body was tense, shaking slightly as she looked up at Lorenzo, staring at him in awe and wonder, green eyes shining.
Holding her hands in his Lorenzo looked into her almond-shaped eyes, a big grin on his face. His gaze roved over her lithe tanned body, and he leant in, making sure he couldn’t be overheard.
“Do you really mean it, Ava? You really want to marry me and be my forever slave?”
The faintest expression of doubt crossed Ava’s face, a miniscule thought suddenly surfacing. She threw it off. This was no time for misgivings.
“Yes, I do Lorenzo. I’ve wanted this for so long!”
“That’s wonderful. I love you, Ava, I know I don’t say it enough.”
Lorenzo took in her athletic shoulders, her succulent round breasts thrust forward in the push-up bra. He couldn’t stop himself from imagining Ava naked either, her flat stomach with its hot sheen of summer sweat, her tiny inny bellybutton.
He also thought, although he couldn’t be entirely sure, that he started to smell that heady aroma of musk exuding from her, the tell-tale sign of her warm wet pussy, readying itself for him.
They spent the rest of lunch talking the wedding through and agreed a date nine months away, that following Spring.
When they got back their minds were lost in a joint passion, groping and fondling each other and rolling in bliss on the bed and even on the grass outside. They finally fell asleep on the soft living room carpet, lost in each other’s arms and bodies.
Ultimatum
Both were in an ecstatic mood over the next few weeks, with Lorenzo starting to make lavish plans for their joint wedding, and Ava harbouring joyful visions of the fabulous bridal gown she would wear down the aisle.
Ava really felt she was really ready now for Lorenzo to be her master, and for her to be his slave, as lifelong partners.
But nothing is ever simple, and everything was about to change.
Four weeks later Ava and Lorenzo sat across from each other for lunch at Johnsons, opposite the commercial bank and hedge fund finance company they each worked in. They often frequented the downtown cafe, picked originally due to its obvious sexual connotations. Plus, the cinnamon biscuits here were to die for.
On this occasion Lorenzo wanted an intimate conversation with Ava, so he had picked a discreet corner, well away from the busy morning visitors. He waved a hand at the waiter, ordering two of the frothy coffees with chocolate sprinkles that they both loved.
At the small round table, with its clean red checkered gingham cloth, they could people watch freely, yet couldn't be overheard by others. With the broad windows open to the gentle breeze, and the heady smell of jasmine in the air, Ava adored summer it in here.
She smiled again at him, sweetly, sliding a stocking heeled foot gently up his leg. She was playing with him gently, coaxing him for a reaction. She guessed he wanted to talk more about wedding plans.
"How's it hanging down there, big boy?"
Ava was having a good day. She had got up that morning with a spring in her step and a smile on her luscious red lips. She fondly recalled their previous evening together when, after a seductive seafood dinner in the apartment, she'd got up, abandoned the cluttered table, and led him gently by the hand into her bedroom.
There she'd delighted in instructing him to strip naked, pushing him down onto the large chrome bed, tying him to its four rigid steel corners with thick black cord. Immobile, struggling pointlessly with his bonds against Ava's knot knowledge, she'd tied a black bandana over Lorenzo's eyes. She'd spent half an hour riding over him, smothering his face with her wet pussy until he almost couldn't breathe. Her juices oozed down his face and neck, hips rocking and bucking, only letting him come up for air after gaps of almost thirty seconds. She was certainly in control that evening.
Despite his pleading, she'd let him recover for only a few minutes, then enveloped his penis with her fist, massaging him. Before he got too big, she pulled the tight steel ring on over his ridged purple tipped cock, the one she kept in a bedside drawer for exactly such moments. Ava teased his swollen balls with a feather mercilessly.
Straddling his muscular body, gripping him firmly with her long legs, Ava had ridden him hard, bucking back and forth over him like a rodeo rider. His tight and almost impossibly rigid cock filled her completely, impaling her over his thighs. As she let him have his final release Ava had felt every tiny sensation of his hot fluid pumping into her, flooding her insides. When he finally came, almost an hour later, Lorenzo had screamed out her name.
Following her own shaking orgasm, Ava also remembered the aftermath fondly too. Her pulling herself off his throbbing cock, the suction from their joint fluids producing a soft squelching sound. Both of their bodies were bathed in sweat and, standing there watching his hard and fast breathing by the side of the bed, she felt their joint fluids begin to run in slow rivulets down the insides of both her thighs. As her vagina tensed and released in her orgasmic afterglow, Ava had that heady feeling of his warm milky jism pulsing from her in a steady stream from between her tight labia. There was so much of it, and she'd loved every sticky minute of it.
Upping the tension at the cafe, she slipped off her heel, extended her leg, and pointed a toe delicately into his crotch, starting to rub.
Studiously ignored Ava's obvious advances and her enticing footsie play under the table, Lorenzo pushed her heel away. He looked deadly serious, his face a stern mask. She could see something was clearly wrong but didn’t know what exactly.
Was he just in a bad mood, or was his neck hurting after last night's facesitting, perhaps? It happened sometimes. She put her heel back on, trying to analyse his concerned look. He broke the growing silence between them.
"Ava, I wanted to meet you here because there's a serious question I need to ask you. Something really important to me."
She started at his unusual stern tone. Lorenzo was normally gentle with her, or at least outside the bedroom. They'd had a good time last night, hadn't they? She began to fidget on the hard chair nervously, starting to stir her coffee absently.
He watched her rapidly changing demeanour, the worried and slightly frightened look in her luminous green eyes as they widened briefly. His tone stayed direct, commanding. One of manager and subordinate rather than lovers who shared intimate experiences.
"Look, Ava, I know that you like dominating me sexually, and I really loved it at first. But I've come to realise over the last few months being a slave is not my thing. It doesn’t work for me."
Ava was suddenly concerned. What was he talking about exactly? Along with trying out a few more of the exciting BDSM practices they'd discussed more recently, she thought that their relationship was going well sexually, albeit with a kinky bent. Even though it worried her, Ava felt she had to speak up, put her case forward for what she loved in him, about him, with him.
"Lorenzo, we've been together since college. We have what anyone else would see as a true partnership. Why do you want things to change? Don’t partners share pleasure and pain too?"
He didn't react at first, just stared at her carefully, watching her.
"That's true, but I really need more from you now, Ava. A lot more. Look, there's no soft or easy way of putting this, even though I know we should have talked about it properly before."
Tears beginning to prick the corner of her Ava's eyes. She felt a tinge of fear about their long relationship together.
"Talked about what exactly? What are you saying? Are you breaking up with me?"
Lorenzo grabbed her hand, calming her down, soothing her.
"No, not at all, please don't worry, Ava. All I'm saying is that, to move forward, I need to feel more in control, of you, of us. Remember when we were students? That's why I gave you that book about master and slave, it was all about control."
Startled Ava looked around, making sure no one else had overheard. Was he really serious about what he'd just said, or was this another of his role play sex games?
"What does that really mean, Lorenzo? This is a total surprise. Where is all this coming from?"
He pressed her hand, becoming more animated, excited now he had begun to unburden himself. Clearly this had been pent up inside him for some time.
"Look, it's simple. To the outside world, everything would still be the same, as if nothing's changed. Like here, or with friends, or our work colleagues. But between us, I'd like things to be different.”
“Different in what way exactly? What do you mean?”
“Ava, I'd like to become your permanent master, and you my permanent slave. That is if you'll accept?"
This was a shock, a momentous and unexpected request. She tried to process his question, stated almost as a demand. In fact, she suddenly realised, the way he had used the word 'permanent' had also almost sounded like a proposal too.
Unusually lost for words, she shuffled uncomfortably in her seat, pulling her thin summer dress underneath her, mentally trying to protect herself. She was thinking hard, trying to process this, struggling with what to reply.
"I, I don't know," she managed to stutter. She felt vulnerable, talking about this here, out in public, like a misbehaving student waiting in line for the school headmistress, about to be questioned about their misdemeanours, under threat of the cane.
He leaned forward and stared at her, an inquisitor, searching for both a truthful response and compliance. She blushed, looking away from his gaze at the other coffee visitors chatting, going about their simple daily lives.
"Lorenzo, we should have talked about this before. It’s too much to take in. I need to think, OK? It's obviously a big deal for me."
Lorenzo pressed on, seeing his advantage.
"Ava, you do want to please me. don't you? This is the natural next stage in our relationship. To become true master and slave."
"Of course I can see you want this, Lorenzo. But you know it's not that simple for me. You do get that? I like control too and, whatever you say, what you want is bound to affect my career, my friends..."
Her voice tailed off, seeing a sudden look of anger cross his face. He'd clearly already made his decision.
"Fine, then, Ava. Let's leave it there. It's your choice. But I'll be honest, I think unless we go ahead with this move, this change in our lives, then there's little future for us."
Lorenzo got up quickly, throwing down a few coins which clattered accusingly on the table. He grabbed his jacket of the back of the chair and left, walking out into the summer sunshine.
Stunned at what he'd said to her, Ava leant forward slowly, feeling warm tears begin in her eyes that then became a sudden flood. One or two of the morning coffee crowd turned round to look at the young women sitting there on her own, bent over the corner table, sobbing uncontrollably.
Demands
Ava hadn't heard from him for a week and was beside herself. She couldn't even bring herself to talk to her friends about what he'd asked her. It was far too personal. Shutting herself off from the world each night in her apartment, Ava felt isolated, alone. She was really scared it was all over between them.