"Future wifey" is not an actual person. More like anxiety formed through years of ignorant upbringing towards sex, lust, physical contact (platonic or not), and the religious expectations of all listed.
I have studied and researched what sex is from many different viewpoints. I am soul searching right now. Differing what I want from how I was raised.
Wanting to express myself. Wanting to enjoy life. However being held back by these unnumbered insecurities. I have released myself from my family's expectations. However I feel overwhelmed with current possibilities.
Alright this is weird for everyone. Just roll with it.
I am thirty years old. (A lil drunk right now)and an abstinent virgin. Raised that way, grew up in a strick religious lifestyle. Lately, as I have moved away from my strict upbringing. I have found myself wanting to experiment. To explore more. With women, and with men, and with everyone in between. Like really struggling with, "future wifey" being upset if I started having fun now -AND- damn he/she/they are really sexy. Been using self-love for so long. Not even sure how to initiate temporary sexual relationships. I tried before in 2016. But it failed miserably. Crowd sourcing for any input. Thank you.
Just as much as I would fuck any other women.
* forgot I was in the Ask the Gals thread.
I would not date a man that alters his body into a woman.
However, if it was a question of being with a women that was born transgender. I would give her some thought.
The problem with typing online or phone texting? There is not an easy way to show non-verbal communication. I thrive on non-verbal communication. It shows more about a person that words can not. It is my own jedi mind trick. For Example:
"Being gay is wrong."
Now a lot of people will read that and think many things about me. Most likely that I am an asshole with limited brain cells. Which I may be, just not for that statement. Because what I couldn't say with my hands and tone of voice and sarcastic smirk is lost on these black and white words.
I do belive that statement. I just can't express to what degree. Not without typing a hundered words to explain my single thought. Which I hate. I hate typing long drawn out explanations that are being ripped apart by someone or a number of people that simply missed my main idea. Being bad with grammar and spelling does not help. It takes away from the point being debated.
Which is why people's reactions to my statements always pisses me off. My past rants caused so much heat. I'm afraid to talk about more complicated issues. So now I just sit in my cave writting rants and blogs that will never see the light of day. Waiting for the chance one of my dumbass friends puts down the x-box. Then asks me my ideas on important "big brother" type stuff.
Talking to strangers in the locker room is not hard. Take it easy and do not push it. Keep in mind that most guys don't want to talk.
It is best to have already broken the ice out in the gym.
Myself, I hate talking at the gym. I'm trying to focus on the work-out or trying to catch my breath after. You really want to meet people take a class or join one of the events your gym offers.
Sleep paralysis is a phenomenon in which people, either when falling asleep or wakening, temporarily experience inability to move, similar to when an arm or leg goes to sleep, but not associated with numbness. More formally, it is a transition state between wakefulness and rest characterized by complete muscle atonia (muscle weakness). It can occur at sleep onset or when awakening. It is believed a result of disrupted REM sleep, which is normally characterized by complete muscle atonia that prevents individuals from acting out their dreams. -Wikipedia
Anybody ever wake up then find you can not move? Felt it hard to breathe, like something was pressing down on your chest? You can see and hear what is going on. Just laying there frozen without being able to go back to sleep or fully wake up.
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Wake up to-
Alarm or radio/music?
Rocky Road!! Unless it is homemade.
Great day of work or bad day on vacation?
*edit
Tea, sugar and lime
Same question
Bus, never been on a train.
Plane or road trip
Mixed drinks
Dance club or sports bar
Getting high, bring on the jager bombs!
Camp fire or propane heater?
Star Wars hands down.
Lose an eye or lose a hand?
Water
Whiskey always ends in me breaking something. Girls hearts, tables n' chairs, dancing. It is not purtty.
Woods or Beach
Nothing but crickets....
I'll try again
I have never had sex.