Wild Abandon It’s not that I forget about Jess, or that my feelings of guilt dissipate overnight, no, far from it. But, my reasoning for breaking up with her proves to be sound. Without her in my life, my access to Ethan is greatly increased. Managing three people's schedules is way, way easier than managing four. Liza is working long hours at her new job and Ethan’s place is only two stops from mine. Stopping in after wo...

  It’s Complicated     It’s been almost two weeks since we got back from the cabin. Real life has turned out to be a real nightmare. Liza has started a new job, which is turning out to be super stressful so she’s needed a lot of Ethan’s time. Added to that, there’s no getting around it, Jess is being clingy. Honestly, I can’t say I blame her. I’ve been blowing hot and cold for months. The net result of all this, is that E...

As the intense summer heat dissipates, our lives have taken a peculiar, yet curiously tolerable rhythm. It seems that the very high notes and the very low notes can’t be heard by anyone but us. They involve only us and no-one else knows about them. We don’t talk about them and once they are over, we are able to live in the mid-tones. In the open. Bizarrely, in the mid-tones, we are developing what one could consider a fri...

Hot in the City   As spring turns into summer, my life starts to fall into a predictable routine of sorts - I see Ethan, we fuck like animals, I’m shocked and repentant (though it must be said, I’m less and less repentant as time passes). I have a period of ‘sobriety’ where I’m able to live my normal life (though in truth, I’ve also started to notice that this sobriety seems to be shorter with each passing escapade). This...

Reality Bites   Jess throws her car keys down on the entrance table, and runs, giggling towards her bedroom, hands playfully covering her butt, in that way I find utterly adorable. In the car on the way home from the unspeakable event that had just transpired at Ethan’s, I’d leant over, kissed her neck and growled, “Anal only.” That was our cue, she knew all too well how the night was going to play out. I chase her down t...

  Ch 1 The First Time   I guess the best place to start is at the beginning, so that’s what I’ll do. The first time I met him, I was at The Dive with my girlfriend Jess. I know, I know, a dive bar named The Dive is pretty corny, and yes, the place is rough around the edges, but the beer is cheap and it’s only a couple of blocks away from my place, so it’s where you can find us most week-ends. Jess and I had been together...