Dear Diary,  I was so nervous to be doing this. Hi, my name is Raven and I am quite successful but there is a part of me that wants to take control, that wants to feel alive. Its very sad when no one knows about my secret. Im waiting for her to come out of the bathroom now. Im so nervous and excited. I just can't stand it. I wonder how many people will watch live this time. I am a Christian Psychologist by day and a lesbi...