BethanyFrasier, can we talk privately ?
There are many more things I would like to discuss with you about this topic.
any chance to talk somewhere else ? Because chat on this website is not working well
well yes I guess you are right, it does feel negative mayb, like self harm.. and I am pretty sure most of the therapists if they read this they would say I have serious issue.
But what am I suposse to tell them exactly ? I am afraid its just to deep, trauma and everything. I would have to completely change my mindset, everything I know and believe...
we never talked about it, but she said she wants to try everything once, so I think if I tell her its my fantasy she would be willing to give it a try.
and yes, one part of me would be angry, jealous, humilliated if she fucks another guy, but still at the same time, it turns me on so much.
when I imagine this I always imagine it with a masculine black guy with a huge cock to fuck her really hard and cum inside her, and I have to clean her up, and if they want, clean him up too. I imagine her getting fucked hard, moaning and telling me how bigger he is than me, and he can make her cum many times, and that he will cum so much inside her that he will put a black baby inside her.
thats my ideal fantasy...
sounds great but what happens if you start to like the new guy more than your bf ?
if the new guy is bigger, and better lover... you leave your bf or... ?
thank you for your answer I will give you more details then. my gf would be shocked if I ask her to do it yes, but I am sure after some time, I could convince her and she would get used to it, to try something new exciting. and when I Imagine it, it is always a masculine black guy with a huge cock, bigger than mine (I am not tiny, but I wouldnt say I am huge either) to fuck her really hard, cum inside her, and then I have to clean her up. and him too, if thats what they want, I d be happy to do it. its nothing gay about it, I never had those desires, its just it turns me on to be ordered what to do, humilliated. thats why I asked if something is wrong with me. Because that kind of humilliation shouldnt turn me on, but I want it , more and more
no doubt about it