After 6 months of dating, I asked my girlfriend to move in with me, why not, we got along great & the sex was terrific, she seemed to be a very open minded person, a person I thought I could share my cross dressing secret with without the fear of her being repulsed by it & storming off calling me derogatory names. By our fourth month of living together, Helen became infatuated with me wearing her panties during sex, I played it off like I didn't like it but deep down I was longing for more. As time passed, so did Helen's insistence on my wearing more lingerie, by the end of our first year together, Helen had me in a bra, panties & pantyhose with her talking about me wearing a whole outfit with a complete makeover. I tried talking Helen out of this idea but she said it was all harmless fun that no one but her & I would know about it & besides, you will make a very pretty girl. To further her argument, Helen said look, I'll make a deal with you, you keep letting me dress you up until Halloween, we will go to a Halloween party with you dressed as a girl & after that I'll never ask you to dress up again. I sat there & thought about her proposal, Halloween was still 7 months away, I cant believe my luck, I am going to pretty much get to live as a woman for the next several months & the best thing is, I don't even have to tell Helen about me being a cross dresser, this was a no brainer, O.K. I said, I'll take your deal, I'll let you do whatever you want to me with no questions asked until after Halloween. Helen was like a giddy school girl, let's get started, go take a bath & remove all of your body hair, I'll bring you in the bra & panties I want you to wear. I finished my bath & put on my bra & panties, I couldn't help but notice how much I liked the feel of silky panties sliding up my hairless legs. I go into the bedroom where Helen is there handing me a pink shorty night gown to put on, I put it on & sat on the bed, Helen came over with a bright red bottle of nail polish & polished my toe nails with three coats, from now on, whenever you are at home you will be dressed as a girl with full makeup & your fingernails polished, she then handed me four pills to take, she said they were for my hair, skin & nails. By the end of the third month of being Joanne, I was really loving spending all of my time as a woman, I was getting to the point where I didn't want to go back to being a man ever again. Two weeks later I lost my job, I hold Helen partly responsible for this, she makes me go to work wearing a bra, panties, pantyhose, light pink nail polish on my fingernails, eye liner, mascara, pink lip gloss, perfume, a pair of women's slacks with no socks just pantyhose & a pair of women's low heeled pump. The company said I was disrupting production. Helen was all smiles, you know what this means don't you ? she asked me, it means you get to be Joanne all of the time, next week we are going to the salon, I have a surprise for you. The following week I was in the salon with Helen, I got a pedicure, a manicure with 11/2" long acrylic nails polished bright red to match my toes, my shoulder length brown hair was frosted, cut & styled in a feminine look, I got a full make over including waxing my eyebrows to thin, highly arched lines. Helen brought my dress, hose, heels & my purse to change into before leaving the salon. When we got in the car, Helen handed me a small jewelry box, I opened it to see a gold necklace with a pendant that said, SISSY. Helen fastened it around my neck before we left the salon. We pulled into the mall parking lot, I asked what we were here for & Helen said it was another surprise for me. We walked to the middle of the mall up to a shop called the piercing pagoda, Helen told the girl that her sissy boyfriend wants to be a woman & needs to get her ears pierced, the girl laughed & said sit right up here sissy & directed me to her chair. As I sat down in her chair, I crossed my legs in a feminine manner getting a strange look from Helen. I wound up getting two holes in each ear, I really felt like the woman I so wanted to be. On our way out of the mall, Helen leaned over to me & whispered, look at the butt on that referring to the guy walking in front of us, I just smiled at her. When we got home I got to get a closer look at myself, I would never have believed I could look this good as a woman, Helen came up behind me & said, I told you would look good as a girl, you sure did I said, thanks. Helen had her camera & her dildo, she took some pictures of me just posing as a girl then she took some of me on my knees deep throating her dildo, I must admit it made me curious to see what it would be like to take a real man in my mouth. The following Friday Helen came home with the pictures she took the previous week, she let me look at them then said she has a friend of hers coming over tonight & when he gets here I was to perform oral sex on him then later he would have anal sex with me, if I didn't do it, she was going to show my mom, sisters & brothers the pictures. Her friend arrived at 8:30pm I did what I was told, the whole time Helen was taking pictures. Jack & I spent the whole night together in the guest room. Helen stood & watched as we came downstairs hand in hand, I walked Jack to the door & we held each other while kissing each other good by. When Jack left & I closed the door, I turned to Helen & told her I never wanted to go back to being a man, Helen looked surprised, I don't want to be with a woman she said, I want a man, I am sorry but I cant live with you any more. Three months later Helen moved out. I gave myself two months to find a man who will let me live with him as his wife if I don't find him, I will have to go back to being a man to make a living.