They say that on first arrival at a coastal town you should ask the way to the old port, for it is there that you will find the soul of the place. That is what the boy planned to do the first moment he and the girl emerged from the shadows of the railway station and into the impossible brightness.
A weather-beaten hand had shown the way. The girl loved that the boy knew things like that. She loved how he always ignored every taverna's printed menu and walked straight into the kitchen to find the soul of the place, simmering quietly in the oven.
When they were shown a room, 'the last available', at a shabby pensione, the boy always politely rejected the first offer, and magically a much better place became available.
This had been the pattern of their life since their first chaotic ferry ride from Piraeus. However, it was only simple chaos, the kind that has been the lot of travellers for generations. It was the chaos of the lost luggage, the wrong ticket, the passport and the chaos of the unmade roads. If your foot slips, blood inevitably flows.
But the blood and the rocks and the unexpected storms that played havoc with the little fishing boats were nothing compared to the chaos within the souls of these two young friends as they traipsed together through love's wilderness.
They were still new to each other. The locals thought they made a pretty pair. The girl was lithe, tall, androgynous, and the boy long-limbed and muscular, but for some, his face betrayed a hidden weakness.
They were both at that brief stage of life where being beautiful was effortless. Youthful hormones set their daily agenda. The room they shared was at the top of the house. Vast beams and stone slabs formed the roof. Here they slept, made love and when he was gone from the room, Cressida shed her private tears.
Every morning, she leaned over the windowsill and watched the boy swim out, far beyond the lighthouse and into the bay. It was his physical presence that had begun all this. His casual almost brutal physicality, his spareness, and his sex. No one had ever fucked her the way he did. So directly, so honestly.
She fucked him honestly too, in her own way. Enclosing was her way, with her hands and mouth and those other parts of her body which seemed perfect for the purpose. It seems strange, therefore that in such a short time, the girl could be watching the boy's wake as he passed the harbour mouth and at the same time long that he would never return.
The island of Crete, as their holiday destination, was the choice of the boy's mother. But let's not call Gideon a boy any more because he was nearly twenty and yes, his name really was Gideon, and yes, his mother had been making his choices for him all his life and would continue to do so.
It was her choice for example that the girl should pay nothing for the whole holiday, and once the mother had allowed Cressida (for that was the girl's name), to protest sufficiently, the mother raised her hands in a gesture of closure and whispered.
"Please don't hurt Gideon too badly."
A routine was established within a couple of days. Gideon went straight from their bed to the water and swam out with his slow, steady and unrelenting strokes. At first, she watched and was proud of him. The men on their fishing boats cheered as he dived off the jetty, missing the rocks by less than half a metre.
Now that her bed was empty, Cressida waited for her dreams to evaporate like some malignant morning mist. "Night terrors" the doctor had called them as he handed her a prescription for a tranquiliser. Once outside, she tore it up.
Their shower was excellent, it worked 'both hydraulically and emotionally' they both agreed, and the water was hot and plentiful. Coffee came from a little machine in their tiny kitchen. The coffee was good too. Then it was yoga time. This time was Cressida's alone. It was not a display of virtue but a daily necessity. Gideon would never see this part of her private world. Once the yoga was done, it was time for breakfast.
Their chosen breakfast place was down a narrow alleyway, and the welcome Cressida received each morning from Phaedra and her mother was fresh and honest. It would not have worked otherwise. It simply could not have been tolerated when Cressida thought herself to be as fragile as one of those eggs where the shell had never completely hardened but was left soft and entire and enclosed and utterly vulnerable to the lightest touch.
Phaedra had immediately recognised this, as had her mother. Phaedra's father understood boats and engines and the sea, and indeed that was enough for any man. Phaedra had the most astonishing blue eyes. She managed the little bar that was their chosen breakfast place. If you would like to know more about Phaedra's looks, every museum in Crete contains her likeness.
Each morning, Cressida sat with Phaedra and her family until Gideon arrived wearing a fresh, clean fisherman's shirt and shorts and was greeted as a returning hero. His eyes were shining, and Cressida thought he was the most beautiful person she had ever seen, and her body was responding in a way that could not be denied.
"I'm going back up, Gid."
She rattled her keys as if to confirm the fact.
Then she said. "Take your time."
Phaedra understood, and she smiled. Cressida was privately delighted that, for this beautiful Cretan girl, just about everything seemed to be understood. Now, with the shutters closed and a fresh sheet on the bed, Cressida undressed. Once in front of the full-length mirror, she allowed that separate awareness of herself to spring to life. She indulged the love she felt for this tall, thin girl-boy creature with her narrow hips and the tight nipples that indicated where her breasts should have been.
She loved her dark, tangled triangle. He had wanted her shaven, but it was not for her. He was completely shaven. It was all to do with swimming, he said. At first, it was shockingly erotic but now just seemed creepy. She brushed her teeth and put some lubricant gel inside herself for he seldom made any attempt to allow her time to be ready... he never knew.
She lay on the bed, her arms by her sides, pale and naked with her lust tightly coiled within her. She heard the door click shut. She listened for the clatter of keys and coins as he emptied his pockets, the smell of his trainers as he kicked them across the room. Then she felt the full weight of his body as he began to fuck her with ruthless efficiency.
She raised her arms over her head. He clamped her wrists with one hand as he took her as remorselessly as she hoped he would. Cressida didn't mind that she rarely came this way. It was the brute strength of him that mattered. She felt his separate wetness as he pulled away from her. He turned to look at her, and she reached up and ran a finger across his lips, his smile.
"Fuck me in the arse please," she said.
She rolled on to her front and waited. She felt semen leaking from her. It would stain the bed, she thought. Gideon never slapped or spanked her which she thought was strange. She waited for the first touch, the first penetration, and she screwed up her eyes as he forced his way into her. Cressida had learned how to relax at this point, and then the pain would stop, and he could do whatever he wanted to her. He cursed as he ejaculated inside her. The sheer weight of his body and the smell of him was, for Cressida, fulfilment.
"I'm going to have my shower now," she said, her voice flat and emotionless. Gideon rolled off her and lay on his side, facing the wall. Soon he would be asleep, she thought.
Now she was sitting cross-legged on the smooth bricks that were the floor of the shower. The water fell like monsoon rain, and Cressida began, little by little, to make love to herself. Her lovemaking was gentle and considerate. Her caresses were born out of the affection and respect she felt for both her soul and her body. Her body responded readily, and her soul gradually began to reconstitute itself after the fucking. Soon every trace of him had gone, and the liquid gathering inside her now was purely her own.
Cressida, the skilful self-lover began like this. The middle two fingers of her left hand performed the opening ceremony, then other fingers sought out the vulva's component parts. This was the best time. Cressida loved to visit each in turn. For her, her cunt was a tropical flower, coral pink within and full of delicate and exquisite surprises.
Soapy fingers soon cleansed the other place, and she made love to that part of herself too. It made her smile at the wickedness she felt as she felt her fingers slide quickly in and very slowly out. Then it was time, and her body would have no more of this nonsense, and her orgasm came all in a rush. It was honest and real, and the girl who lay curled and whimpering under the deluge was indeed herself for no-one can pretend anymore during that magnificent rush of joy. When she emerged once more, hair wet, a towel around her waist, she saw that he was gone. His hiking boots were gone too so she knew he would be away for hours.