August 2015
< Michael Dolan arrived at my cell door last night. Dolan is or was an infamous London gangster. He was also the psychotic ringleader of a gang of thugs here. He is what they call a ‘lifer,’ in for a string of violent offences in the 1990s, including prostitution, arson, extortion and murder, most notably the sadistic torture and killing of a gangland rival. The court case dominated the newspapers for weeks, leading up to his eventual conviction and sentence. I remember reading about the brutal way the man died, having his teeth and fingernails extracted before his murder sickened the nation, but this gives him notoriety which he obviously enjoys and relies on here. >
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“Nice,” he said, smiling in the doorway. As soon as he spoke, I recognised his voice. The clipped, precise timbre, the emphasis on the 'c' extending the word to a strange hiss. This was the man from the storeroom. I remember thinking that his surprisingly articulate, slightly feminine voice didn’t match either his character or reputation. I didn’t reply; I didn’t know what to say and frankly didn’t know what he was referring to.
‘Nice.’ What does that mean? What was nice? “You do know that by the time you get out of here she will have found somebody else.” I kept my head down, aware that he was talking about my wife, but keeping my focus on a dark blue fleck of paint that stained the hard grey concrete floor. “In fact, I’m surprised a pretty young thing like her has hung around for as long as she has.”
”You see, it’s her mouth. It was the first thing that I noticed and it’s quite exquisite. A little like yours, my dear boy, it is simply made for fellation, but I imagine that you already know that. Yes, I can picture her now with those lips wrapped around a nice, thick cock. She’s going to be perfect. The next time she visits, I want you to give her something from me. And unless you want our relationship to become a lot more regular, you will comply.”
And then he was gone. I had no idea what had just happened. It was left to my cellmate, Charlie Walker, to fill in the blanks and tell me how it all worked. Charlie is dead now, died in the prison infirmary. He was a small-time career criminal, a man in his late sixties from Dundee who had spent half his life in prison, mainly for what is considered to be petty crime: house and shop break-ins.
“I don’t know how you’ve done it, son, but somehow you’ve found your way into his book. I’ve seen it happen.” I still didn’t understand what I had done or what I could do to rectify it.
“He preys on your weaknesses and exploits them. You’re a mild-mannered man, and just one look at your photos in this room tells me that you’re happily married with children.”
“What do you mean?” He looked at me, reading my blank features and thoughts before continuing.
“Easy to exploit. My guess is he will want you to give her something, a note maybe. It’ll have a phone number on it and when she calls, and she will, she will be told that you are in danger, to be confirmed by the state of your face. They’ll say that she can help you.”
“What can she do?” I actually said that, can you believe it? Christ, I was so naïve.
“Fucking hell, son, do I need to spell it out?” he answered, his eyes narrowing with a mixture of amusement and bemusement. “He’s going to put your wife to work in return for your safety.” I could feel a stab in my chest as if a cold steel blade had punctured my skin, passing between the ribs and piercing my heart.
“Doing what?” I asked. I was so green that I didn’t understand this world; it was a million miles from my background.
“Drugs. They’re all in on it, the gangs, some of the guards, the ones with a secret they want to be kept hidden. He’ll get her to smuggle them in, stash them in a pre-arranged place. One of the guards will collect and into the system it goes. And although you don’t want to hear it, Dolan also runs a seedy porn ring. My guess is she’ll be asked to participate. She’ll have to perform sexual favours for them.”
My wife. I met Olivia, or Livy as I call her, on a night on the town when we were both twenty-one years old. She was on a hen night with a group of rowdy girlfriends when they burst into the same pub that I was in on a night out with work colleagues.
She was so obviously different from the rest, all wearing short skirts and low-cut tops and showing everyone what they had.
Olivia stood, a little embarrassed, on the fringes and I was immediately drawn to her. She was wearing a coffee-coloured jumper-dress and a black leather jacket and her long brown hair hung down to her shoulders.
She had a slim, petite figure which, despite giving birth to two children, she continues to have. Her quiet, unassuming personality was underlined by the pair of black-rimmed glasses, which I always joked gave her the look of a librarian. I knew that I loved her almost instantly. We married a year later, and our children arrived quickly over the next three years. We were both twenty-nine when this happened.