The Stalker
Author’s disclaimer:
The characters depicted in this story are all 18 years of age or older. The language used is designed to reflect the state of mind of the central character.
The sole and heel of my 4” stiletto courts meet the Underground platform in unison giving of a satisfying click. Steadily I work my way along revelling in the rhythm of my feet on the echoing granite.
There is an art to walking properly in heels; not the hip swinging parody of Marilyn Monroe in “Some Like It Hot”, nor the assertive masculine strut that models adopt for the length of the catwalk; it must be fluid, feminine and graceful.
I have been to finishing school, perhaps not Debretts, but I have been trained to walk properly and they are lessons I will not easily forget. The body is to be held upright, chin raised, eyes fixed forward and back straight. Each foot is to be placed directly in front of the other, toe to heel at a distance of 6” apart; no more, no less. With each step you slightly adjust your weight allowing your hip to pivot forward and your buttocks to wiggle beneath your clothing.
You must glide; the upper half of your body stiffly immobile, your hips and buttocks an enticement to the delights contained between your parted thighs as your heels rap out their rhythm of seduction.
I am dressed to impress today; a half unbuttoned fitted white shirt beneath a cropped equestrian styled black cotton/linen jacket exposes the sleek line of my neck as it flows down to my half revealed chest and the temptation of my bosom. My waist is nipped in by the jacket’s tailoring which then flares to accentuate the curvature of my hips. I am wearing my shortest skirt; it is tight, fitted and finishes 3” below the rounded swell of my arse and as I progress along the platform it rides up my thighs to reveal the lace tops of my stockings.
4” heels, stockings, shortest and tightest skirt, fitted yet revealing shirt and jacket; this is not my everyday work wear. I have made an extra effort with my appearance for today is going to be a special day.
I have a stalker you see, and it’s rather sweet. Every day he hides out somewhere on this tube platform to await my arrival and then sidles into my carriage. He spends the journey making furtive glances in my direction and then when he thinks I’m engrossed in my book allows his eyes to roam across my petite form.
It was a long time before I noticed him. Most mornings I sit in the same place, bleary-eyed, my head stuffed full of cotton wool as I daydream about all the things I would rather be doing than travelling across London in a battered, old carriage to do a job I loathe. Most days the less I know of my surroundings the better.
I have no idea how long he has been doing this or what he does once I enter the revolving doors of the sterile, air conditioned office that is my destination. Maybe he is a professional stalker and as soon as my nylon clad legs disappear behind smoked glass he hot tails it to his next appointment. Maybe I am his 7.30 to 8.45 in a day packed full of shadowing lone eligible females. Certainly, he never seems to be available to continue his scrutiny of me when I return homeward at 5pm and whatever attractions I might hold for him doesn’t last through the evenings or weekends ... no lurking for him down semi-lit alleyways spying on my bedroom window through a pair of heavy duty binoculars in the hope of catching a glimpse of my naked flesh, no rooting through my weekly refuse to find out all my dirty little secrets, no trailing after me at the weekend as I trawl Covent Garden for that ‘to die for’ outfit and no appearances at the bars and fleshpots I have the habit of visiting once the sun has set over our grimy metropolis.
I mean what is the point of having a stalker if they can’t be bothered to do it properly. It is most frustrating.
Perhaps I’m not taking it seriously enough. Maybe I should be worried at the idea of someone following me on a daily basis. It is after all slightly sinister and an invasion of my privacy; that is if an hour long tube journey can be considered as private time. Maybe I should be reporting him to the police but that feels like using a mallet to crack a nut and I have a much better nut cracking idea. Anyway, he is rather cute in a nervous boy struggling to become a man sort of way and, to tell the truth, I’m rather flattered by his attention.
It hasn’t been a good couple of years; I’ve bounced my way through relationships like Zebedee on coke and for a while it didn’t seem to matter. There was always another arrogant, opinionated prick hanging at the bar eager to buy me a drink, regale me with boasts about his exploits and take me back to his semen stained bedding to demonstrate that alcohol doesn’t enhance sexual performance ... and some of them even provided breakfast. But recently it has all seemed too much effort.
Lately, the weekly grind of beautifying myself for the benefit of being pawed by some sexual Neanderthal has paled as all I’ve really wanted was a bit of attention, a little tender loving care and perhaps a soupcon of devotion. Perhaps I’m suffering from some mutated form of Stockholm Syndrome; just another spoilt, unloved little rich girl desperate to fall head over heels in love with her rough, tough, sadistic captor or maybe I’m losing myself in a delusional fantasy world where even the casual glances of a fellow commuter have become an infatuation. Today I intend find out.
The platform announcement flashes up the words “Next Train Approaching” highlighted as it always is by a series of asterisks in the vain attempt to make the news more exciting. I take a step forward towards the platform edge and have a casual glance around my fellow passengers. I have never spotted him on the platform and today is no exception. Although he always arrives in my carriage just as “please stand clear of the doors” booms through the tannoy, for some reason I feel nervous that today of all days he will not show.
My thumb finds my mouth and I nibble at it ruining my carefully prepared manicure. I take another step forward, peek along the rank of faces trying to espy his amongst them. I give my hair a flick, half turning first to the left and then right to get a glance of those stood behind me but he is nowhere to be seen.
The train clatters into the station. Doors slide apart with their familiar pneumatic hiss and incessant high pitched beeps and with as little physical contact as possible, we all bustle our way into the carriage in an unspoken race to claim a seat.
I need no seat today. Instead, I squeeze my way through the assorted bags and bodies to the doorway through which he always enters. There I hang from the hand strap half blocking the aisle, my eyes fixed on the vacant doorway awaiting his arrival.
My heart thumps nosily in my chest and my palm feels damp against the plastic strap. I realise I am nervous and immediately chide myself for such silliness. I force an image of Doris Day into my head and make the melody of ‘Que, Sera, Sera’ float through my brain.
“Please stand ...” the rest of the words are lost to me as he darts through the door. Seeing me directly in front of him, he pulls up short and tentatively glances around my body to take in the empty seat where I would normally be sat.
He’s nonplussed, uncertain, his safe and cosseted world turned on its head. I should be sat so that he can chose a seat from which to view me discreetly but to even get to a seat he is going to have to push past me; and why am I stood here when there are free seats?
I can see it all in his face; the darting eyes, the quick bite at his bottom lip, the slight blanching of his pallid skin. He lowers his head, refuses to meet my gaze, takes a small step backwards and settles on the shelf come seat that is adjacent to the door.
That is how we travel; thirteen stops on the Underground, him seated gazing at his shoes, me hanging from a strap my eyes boring into the top of his head challenging him to acknowledge me. For thirteen stops people move into and out of our carriage, filling and emptying it as we pass through central London. For a while we are packed in, perfumed bodies pressed into one another and I lose sight of him. I half think that he’ll take the opportunity to jump ship unseen but when the bodies thin out he’s still sat there unmoving with downcast eyes.
For the final time I sway against the strap as the tube decelerates to our joint destination. The carriage is half empty now and as always there will only be a handful of us disembarking. With a final shuddering clunk we arrive and I step forward to stand directly in front of him, crowding his space with my petite body. Slowly his head rises drawn inexorably towards my intense gaze. Our eyes lock and I hold him fixed like the needle point of a compass stuck forever on North. He is mine ... mine ... mine. Beeps and hisses break through the moment; the door slides aside, I flash him my best smile and with a swing of my hips I ‘mind the gap’ and sashay my way onto the platform.
There is an art to walking a puppy. You must keep the lead tight, dragging on their neck so that their tongue hangs slavering from their mouth as their wet nose sniffs at the air fixated on the aroma of your passing. You need to provide a visual feast to keep their eyes fixed ahead, to prevent their vision straying onto any other delights that might inhabit an Underground platform. With every step you must display the fine silhouette of your body to maximum advantage; legs extended to show slender ankles, the toned curve of a calf and the steady broadening of thigh, all seductively clad in fine sheer hosiery which leads the eye upwards to the lace enticement that flits in and out of view as your skirt rises and falls in time with the drumbeat of your heels. With head held high and shoulders thrown back finely brushed hair flows down your back glowing copper in the artificial lighting. As it strokes between your shoulder blades it points downwards to the pinched definition of your waist and the swaying sensuality of hips and buttocks that can only hint at the incessant throb and puffy wetness that is contained within.
I lead my puppy on a short leash, his nostrils filled with the thick, humid scent of my sex, his eyes captivated by the ‘come hither’ motion of my buttocks as they wriggle trapped beneath fabric they are desperate to escape. I lead him on heel extended legs along the platform, up escalators, through the concourse and out into the grey light and fume filled air. We travel past a run of tired convenience stores, besides traffic sitting nose to tail belching carbon that collects in my hair, bespoils my freshly laundered clothing and clogs my scrubbed and cleansed skin. We slalom our way through the striding humanity that with heavy hearts and downturned mouths dragging themselves to work, so as to pay for two weeks of sun and stress in a Spanish villa. I walk him away from all of this; down a half forgotten access road that runs behind shop fronts that no longer cater to customer needs and he trots along like the diligent stalker, the obedient puppy, the good little boy that I know he is.
The tarmac is cracked beneath my feet, latticed with tufts of grass, interspersed with potholes like tiny craters. On both sides are 8ft high brick walls that conceal hidden Victorian yards. It is a road that no longer has a purpose, decorated with rubbish and tangled brambles, untended, unmaintained, untraveled by feet or wheel. It is perfect.