I remember one morning, I was standing in line for coffee. It wasn't my usual place and I was killing time before a very boring meeting. The woman at the counter was dealing with a very confused pair of women who kept changing their order. I shook my head in sympathy, some people really shouldn't buy coffee if making an order is that much work.
The door tinkled behind me and closed with a creaking thud. I saw a shadow tower over me, a very thin shadow. Probably one of the college kids on the basketball team. Some of them are like beanstalks, tall enough to reach the moon and thin enough to make a supermodel feel fat. Bastards. I wish I had a metabolism like that.
I looked behind the counter and caught a reflection of who was behind me in the polished chrome of the coffee machine.
They were tall, over six feet tall.
Nothing remarkable in that, there are a lot of tall men in the world. Dark suit jacket, dark pants, dark formal shoes too. They must be going to a meeting too. Only no tie around their neck, probably in the jacket pocket.
Finally, my turn to order a large Americano, with 3 shots, to go.
The barista smiled, it's almost impossible to mess up an order that simple and clear.
The machine whirled, belched and spluttered. Dark gold poured into the paper cup. The aroma of the beans made my eyes water.
"Colombian, single-origin beans, they are amazing." The barista answered my unspoken question with a proud gentle tone. Only a devotee of coffee gets misty-eyed at the scent of a good roast.
I paid for mine and left a big tip to compensate for those clueless fools who couldn't remember their order. I stepped to the side to get some sugar and that's when I saw the figure behind me more closely.
Gold wired glasses, a mannish suit, but that walk was totally feminine. Men don't roll their hips like that.
That crisp white shirt might have been a man's shirt, but the torso under it wasn't ramrodded straight. There were curves under there, subtle ones, but they were there.
The clincher was the lips; no man's lips are that soft and sensual. She might have been rocking mannish butch, but that was definitely a woman.
I heard her low husky voice order and took my time with the sugar.
Call me shallow, but I like tall women. I'm five foot eight, which is taller than a lot of women I know. Put my hair up and slip on some heels, and I'm touching six feet. Height counts when dealing with some men.
This woman was over six feet, six foot three or so if the shelving was a good indicator.
I felt a cold shiver run down my spine. Gawd, I love tall women.
Maybe it goes back to the first woman to teach me the way to properly live my life. She was six feet tall in her bare feet and more than capable of reducing me to a quivering satisfied heap on the bed.
"Oh, excuse me, could you pass me the stirrer, please?" Her voice was soft, low, oddly shy.
I stepped to the side and with nimble fingers, she plucked what she wanted and stirred her tea.
I noticed how big they were but how elegant the fingers were.
Like she could be a piano player, a painter or a surgeon.
I looked up into her eyes; beautiful blue eyes. For a moment, I could hear the mocking laughter of children, the awkward silences in conversations when she walked into a room, her being called Sir by people who only saw the suit and the height. I could feel the loneliness.
I had an aunt that tall. Men felt threatened by her height, her intelligence and her sharp wit.
So, they'd try to change the subject to things she couldn't possibly know anything about: sports, finance, cars.
She did know about them, though, more than they did. The conversation would drift into long silences till she moved on.
Women didn't know what to make of her. She towered over them, never wore a dress or much makeup. She didn't have a man in her life or seem to want one. She didn't want to talk about other people’s love lives, or babies, or fashion. So, they just waited for her to move on.
Not womanly enough to be part of her sisters and too much of a woman to be part of the men's circle. I knew how lonely her life was.
"Um, I hope you don't think this is too forward, but I... I'd like to talk to you if that's ok. I'm Lauren." My voice came out in a high-pitched nervous squeak. Gawd, what must she think of me?
"Ahhh, sure. I guess. I'm Kara." Such a soft, shy voice. I could feel the tension in her, just in the way she stood.
Other people judged her, made her feel less than or 'other'.
We took our drinks outside and walked along the street.
I envied her long elegant stride.
Even in dress shoes, she had the easy stride my father and his brothers had. She had all the time in the world and was just taking it easy.
Gawd, I felt a flush of heat on my cheeks. I hoped I wasn't blushing.
Please, let me not be blushing.
If you're saying that to yourself, you're blushing.
"Are you ok? You seem flushed.” That lovely soft voice.
Before I could think about it or even stop myself, I answered, "I... I like tall women. You can walk into a room and people get out of the way for you. If you speak to a man about something, they look you in the eye and not down your cleavage." My voice was passionate, filled with a shorter woman's envy.
"You can buy jeans in your own leg length without having to get them taken up. You can take an escalator in a store and not worry some man is going to try to take a photo of your knickers up your dress on his phone. Gawd, I envy you so."
I licked my lips and continued.
"You have that long easy stride of someone who never needed to wear heels. Gawd, I wish I could walk like that. Like Katherine Hepburn."
A deep chuckle surprised me; she was looking at me from her huge height. Her mouth opened in a low laugh; her eyes sparkled behind her glasses. The tension seemed to have left her.
"That's true. People do get out of my way when I walk into a room; what you don't see is they don't talk to me. I'm this mannish freak that sounds like a woman. Sure, I can get a man to look me in the eye when he talks to me; he just won't ever consider me a woman. He won't notice my perfume, my new earrings or compliment me on anything. No man has ever bought me a drink in a bar or asked for my number."
She took a mouthful of her tea and continued walking.
"I envy what you have too. You have that honey blonde hair I see in the movie stars like Marilyn Monroe. You have tits and an ass, where all I have is an ironing board. You walk into a room and people light up to see you. That barista was giving you the eye and you didn't notice. I don't get that kind of look from my cat when I feed her."
We found a bench on the street to sit for a few moments.
Quiet slurps as we drained our cups and thought of what to say.
"I guess the other girl always has it better than you, eh. Look, this might be pushing my luck, but I'd like to see you again." My voice was throbbing with sincerity.
"Really? I didn't expect this when I went in for tea." She sounded surprised like she wasn't sure I was serious.
Without a word, I took out the receipt for my coffee and taking a pen out of my jacket pocket. I wrote my name and number then I held it out to her.
"What's this for?" came the awkward response.
"Girls like me get a few numbers passed their way. I thought you'd like to be the one who got the number for a change." My voice was flirtatious and gentle.
I slipped the piece of paper into her hand and pressed my lips against her cheek, leaving a small red mark on where my lips had been.
We parted then, she had an appointment to keep and I had that boring meeting.
I didn't think anything of it for a while. My head was full of work stuff. Two days later I got a phone call.
"Uhh, hi, it's me, Kara. The woman you met at the coffee shop. I've never been given someone's private number before. Do... Would... I need to collect my cat from the vet, and I'd like you to meet her. My cat, I mean. Is one o'clock good for you?" She sounded nervous like she was trying to ask me out but didn't know how.