Unlike my earlier years when my self-pleasure was so often a race to orgasm, in recent years I’ve learned to be more mindful, slow, and patient in my masturbation, slowly building up the excitement and savoring all the sensations along the way. Also, unlike in the past, I do not orgasm every day and so now my masturbation sessions are less frequent but much more intense. During the week I will periodically sext with online lovers, watch porn, and let the sexual tension in me gradually rise as the days go by. Later in the week, I’m very conscious of how my penis and testicles feel as I shower and how they hang and swing in my clothes as I go about my day. By week’s end, I’m more than ready for a nice strong release.
Finally, the night arrives and I’m full of anticipation. I start with some good herbs. I can feel the tension going out of my body, and my awareness of each sound, sight, and sensation increases. I am suddenly very comfortable with my nudity, and appreciative of my own body. I lay naked on soft blankets and just relax, imagining a naked woman by my side. A prostate massager, oil, and a silk cloth were nearby.
Laying on my back, I close my eyes and run my fingertips over my thighs, chest, shoulders, and belly with feather-light caresses. My whole body wakes up, enjoying the whole range of sensations. No hurry at all in this stage, goosebumps rise as I tease my collarbone area, my armpits, chest, and inner thighs. Soon all my skin is tingling.
Now the silk cloth comes into play and I let it brush over all my skin and eventually my perineum and testicles which jump and rise at its sweeping touch. Circling my balls and then sliding up my shaft which begins to pulse and become erect, eventually I reach full erection and it’s time to add anal pleasure.
With legs up and ample lube, I place the toy at my anus and gently push and pull against the opening. This relaxes me and eventually, I’m ready to let it slide inside. I feel a mix of slight pain, pressure, and then pleasure as it penetrates, and then a deep fullness as it reaches my prostate. I can feel it inside me and in my testicles.
I enjoy stroking my prostate and at the same time lightly fondling and caressing my testicles. Rolling and cupping each in turn. The excitement continued to build inside and outside.
Finally, my full, turgid, and pulsing penis is ready for attention and I run my fingers up and down the shaft. First with a dry hand and then with lots of olive oil. Teasing and squeezing my glans and then stroking up and down the whole length. I can’t hold back as my body moans in pleasure.