Logan McConnell sighed and leaned back against the hard wooden pew. It had been a good turnout, he thought. He looked around the chapel. Yellow roses — Cindy’s favorite — were everywhere. A huge bouquet sat atop the coffin. Bright ribbons and bunting softened the bland, sad interior of the nursing home chapel. He smiled. She would have been pleased. She hated sad, somber funerals. She preferred celebration. In life and now, in death. His eyes misted as he thought of her, always the life of the party and the spark of his life. Just when I thought I was cried out.
Logan embraced the silence. It may have been the first time he could remember being alone — other than the cruel hours of the early morning when everyone is always alone — since Cindy passed. He shuddered at the thought of that cold, soulless hospital room, with its unhelpful bells and buzzers. The silence of the tiny chapel was a welcome contrast to that memory.
It was time to go. His daughter would wonder why he hadn’t joined the reception. His hip complained as he stood. His ankle and knee added their cries to the protest as he limped to the coffin and gave the embalmed, waxen figure posing as his wife a peck on her forehead. He turned and walked up the aisle between the pews.
“Am I late?” A voice asked from the entry.
Logan looked up to see a handsome older man in a tweed jacket and tie.
“I am so sorry,” the man said, “It seems like I’m always late these days.”
“She’s not going anywhere,” Logan joked, trying to place the face. “By all means, please, come in. Logan returned to a pew and watched the man, of about his age, make his way slowly toward Cindy.
The man crossed himself as he passed the cross and then stood over Cindy for some time. He was whispering something, perhaps a prayer. Whispers turned to sniffles, and then to suppressed sobs. Logan was touched, if a bit confused, by the man’s emotion. He walked up and placed a hand on the man’s back.
“I apologize, sir, but I'm afraid I’ve forgotten your name,” Logan said.
“Frank,” the man said, wiping tears away with the back of his hand.
“Ah, Frank,” Logan said. “I’m so embarrassed to say that I don't remember you, Frank. How did you know — ?”
“We were lovers,” Frank cut Logan off with a gravelly throat.
Logan looked at the man with amusement. Odd time for a joke, he thought.
“What’s that?” Logan asked, his amusement quickly fading.
“Yeah, 1977…78. Best sex of my life.”
Logan flared. Muscle memory from a summer of Golden Gloves at thirteen fired instantly. Logan squared his shoulders and sent a right cross toward the liar’s chin. In his mind, the bastard was sent sprawling to the fake wood laminate floor. Instead of landing, however, Logan’s fist hit nothing but air.
The hyperextension sent a shock of pain from Logan’s shoulder to his spine. The loss of balance caused him to stumble. What was left of his right knee gave out and Logan fell to the faux oak floor with a thud. Unable to catch himself with his shoulder, Logan’s “good” knee and his ribs absorbed the impact. He lay on the floor, breathless, his brain overwhelmed with the lightning bolts of pain emanating from what seemed like his entire body.
“Good lord, man, what the hell happened?” Frank exclaimed with surprise, apparently oblivious to Logan’s enfeebled attempt at assault. Frank groaned an old man groan as he knelt in slow motion at Logan’s side. “Here, let me help you up,” Frank said, suffering from the illusion that he actually could.
The two octogenarians proceeded to string together enough rolling and crawling motions to make it to a pew. They pulled themselves up with the vigor of a pair of old sloths. Logan slumped against the arched pew end, nearly paralyzed with pain and confusion.
“My god, what a woman she was,” Frank said, plunging back into his remembrance. “We met at CBGB in the East Village. Fucking Talking Heads were playing, I shit you, not. Sixty people in there, tops. I was thinking I was a little too old for the scene when I spied this hot thirty-plus babe across the dance floor. She’s in leather pants, a tight t-shirt, braless, and I’m in fucking love.”
Logan processed this slowly with a brain that was still in shock. The woman this odd man was describing could not possibly have been my wife. In ‘77 we would have still been in Queens with two young children. Cindy did go into Manhattan now and then to see girlfriends. And she was into new music, but...