It had been a hard week. My boss asked, “we need you to work an extra day and we need you to work extra hours.” I still had my normal house work and papers to do at home on top of these work requests. I glanced down to the clock on the dash...8:35 P.M. I let out the longest sigh imaginable as I thought of all the things I still needed to do with so little time left in the day...well night. I looked back up at the road as the raindrops began misting across the windshield. The pattern grew heavier and more crowded so I turned on my wipers. Great, just what I need now...rain. Before I got another mile down the road my phone chimes...it's him. I pull over to the side of the road. Why the hell don't I just wait till I get home. But no... I'm curious to see what he wants. The road is deserted. No lights or other cars in sight and the burm is wide enough to get me safely off the road to read the message.
The phone reads, “it's raining hard outside, I want to go out and stand in it and feel you all over me”
I stare down at the message; blinking hard not to let a tear roll down my cheek.
It chimes again and says, “i love you”
I don't answer back. This is my boyfriend, Blake. He is a very intense and unusual person. His looks match his personality. He has a large, muscular body with raven black hair that is wickedly wild in appearance. He stands around 5'10 and 180 lbs. His skin is pale white because he doesn't care much about tanning. His eyes are the color of liquid titanium and he has long black lashes that any girl would kill for. He's 25 but carries himself like a man far past his actual years. While he looks individuals in the eyes, others ironically look away from his stares. People get nervous and uneasy around him; where as I find him pleasant and warm and very friendly. I am the complete opposite of him. People describe us as a coin, two complete different sides of the same piece of metal. I am very short and petite. I stand a little over 5 foot and weigh just over 100 lbs. I'm naturally tan and get darker during the warm month. I worship the sun and water like others worship a God. I have natural multifaceted hair; strands of strawberry blonde and browns mix through my locks. My eyes are the color of the pacific ocean after a storm..a pale blue with bits of gray. I am normally full of energy that outshines the sun. I bounce instead of walking and giggle instead of talking. I am Erin, I'm often described as the rain...I'm like the spring freshness that everyone needs and craves.
Last night we had words because I don't know how to say no to people and I spread myself thin, too thin and usually end of sick because of it. I don't like when we fight. He have only been dating for a few months and it seems as the weather changes from fall to winter so is our relationship.
The chimes again... “please don't ignore me, I need you to understand”. Without a pause it chimes again immediately, “Just saying your heart is a kingdom of glass and it's mine to protect”
The tears I tried so hard to hold back poured down my face and puddle at my open lips as I try to breathe steady and not loose control. I toss the phone on the seat hoping it lands face down so I don't see who is texting me. As if it would be anyone else besides him at this moment. I pull the car back onto the road and start driving towards home. I head down the familiar streets before getting to the large intersection half way between my house and his. I pause and look towards the left fork...his house. Then I turn my attention back to the right...my home. The road is still empty but I still look both ways before signaling my turn. Out of the corner of my eye I look again to the left as the phone chimes again.
Damn it.
I whip my car around in the middle of the intersection and hit the accelerator. I drove fast feeling my heart race as I drove completely over the speed limit. I pulled into his drive and shift it to park; grabbing my phone and tucking it into my pocket out of habit as my headlights caught his silhouette. He was standing in the rain just as he said he was going to with his hood covering most of his face. I could see his smile slowly creeping across his face while his eyes still stayed covered by his hood. My heart stopped and I jumped out of the car as fast as my hands could open the door.
I walked up to him as the rain pelted my body and it soaked me to the skin. I laid my body against his and look up at him under his hoody to his eyes. They were dripping wet and not from the rain this time. I reached up to his neck and tugged down on him as the drops of his tears fell onto my lashes. He said nothing so I broke the silence. “I'm sorry....I love you...and yes” I whispered it into his ear almost like a prayer to his heart. I hoped he understood what I meant. Thinking back to our fight...to me asking why he needed to control me so much...to him trying to explain that is how he is, how he lives. Thinking back to me being argumentative and saying no..never to his proposition.
He lifted me off my feet. My toes pointed back down to the ground. “Do you mean it? Are you sure?”
“Yes, please, quickly before I change my mind.”
His lips touched mine and he kissed me deeply; he stole the breath from my mouth and I felt the world stop for that moment. He drew his lips away and I immediately craved them again on me. I wiggled up to kiss him once more and he looked at me intensely. “Erin, your mine! You understand that I'm taking you and this is your last free chance at no?”
I looked back at him as my heart slowed to one last pang. “Yes, I understand, but I guess you don't”.
He looked at me with his eyebrow lifted. “What?”
“I gave you my heart months ago, silly. This is just my body now. You might as well claim it too.”
He smiled and with one quick motion I was in his arms being carried up to his loft. He climbed up the stairs with ease never looking away from my eyes.
“I'll apologize now, baby doll” he said quietly as he reached the landing and turned to head towards his bed.
“It's alright” I nervously giggled, the only response that could come to my mind.
He laid me gently down and leaned over me trying to quickly and gently remove all of my clothes. The jeans and shirt came off easily enough then he stopped. I moved my hands to help him with my bra and he looked at me with an eerie expression.
“What is it?” I asked
He looked me up and down then stopped again at my face, “your beautiful”.
“Oh gezz” rolling my eyes and looking away.