I totally deleted you from my life;
Seeing you around only caused me strife.

Made it so I’d have to look to see if you were here;
I am trying to protect me,
After so long the urge made me look;
There you were like I have fucking e.s.p.

What are the chances the only time I look you are there?
I rack my brains; I have no idea why I should even care.

I don’t understand what I see in you?
Why can’t I resist when I know you don’t want me,
Never did only wanted a feeling I know how to give;
For this conflict in my heart there is no appease.

Just knowing what you are doing at any point in time;
Upsets me so very bad because you should be mine!

You are just an obsession that eats me alive;
Sadness and anguish in doses I can’t take,
Wanting you is making me so sick;
I don’t think there is any part of me left you can break.

How can I let you get under my skin this way?
I need you out of my head with no delay.

A phantom or a fable is all you are;
A little piece of make believe,
Teasing me with what I want;
Just to get what you think you need.

I probably need to be hypnotized;
To keep from replaying all your lies.

In my head over and over again;
My mind won’t turn off it keeps on spinning,
My heart is longing but I tell it no;
With this one there is no way you’ll be winning.

I need something real I can hold in my hand;
I tried so hard to make you understand.

Every time I put together two and two;
It never adds up to what it should be,
Your actions never equal your words;
They blatantly say you don’t care about me.

Not enough to be a lover and a friend;
I can never tell what you really intend.

I wanted to believe you so very bad;
All the things you said and the declarations you made,
Wishing you had actually been sincere;
The reality cuts me like a sharp blade.

It wasn’t my intention to be mean to you;
I was left with no option, nothing left to do.

Clouds my judgment leaving me vulnerable;
Strung along on a hope and a dream,
A desire that is never satisfied,
Nothing is ever as it seems.

It makes me feel like I’m not very smart;
Forever tormented is my troubled heart.