Another day and no word, how can the man I love not send word to me?
How could he not know what he means to my heart and soul?
I stand in the shadow weeping my tears as the cold rain falls upon me like knives ripping my heart and soul over his lack attention towards me. My life is like a shatter glass upon the floor of life with no meaning. Desire I had to reach out to him is now flutter away like wasted dreams. As each days slowly walks by like each breath of life is forever walking into darkness, I shiver to my lostness of him never being with my arms. How can I walk away what has taken my heart and soul as his forever? I wonder with trembling thoughts of pain and sorrow somehow this is my fault he is now lost to me. His life is now nothing where he has imprisons me with his darkness of doom. Did he ever know what he meant to my heart and soul? I ache to his hidden pain and sorrow. Weeping tears upon each thought of him is killing me. Yet I can not run away from his darkness, but he will not reach out to me. I have reach out to all I know who knows him, but no one is telling me about him. Why must I suffer his pain? Should I run to him? Would he see me? Does he want me with him, so I can look into his eyes and hold his hand as he tremble in fear over what he has done to himself. Can I show him the way from the darkness? Do I have the strength and power to save him or will I lose myself in his nightmare of hell? Why should I offer him help? Why should I even care to that he lost to me? He never once was true friend to me. Why do I love him so completely, when he has never shown me one ounce of love back. Why does his words haunting at nights? Another day and still no word from the man I love more than life. Why does this hurt me? I toss and turn upon my bed with his haunting cries flowing about me. My heart and soul says go to him, But my mind says to wait for him to reach out to me, the one person that is dying to help him out of his nightmare life now. Just to clarify my words, I can not deny what he stirs within my heart and soul. My body belongs to him forever. Even if I must wait forever till he is free to come to back into life.