There's a bluebird in my heart that
Wants to get out, 
But I'm too tough for him,
I say, stay in there, I'm not going
To let anybody see
You
- Charles Bukowski - 

When loneliness became a part of me
In such a way that others could not see.
My heart forgot to feel, it hurt so much,
And locked itself up tight against a touch.

The bluebirds came to nest, they lost their way.
They could no longer fly, they had to stay.

With time I learned to lock them up as well
To stop the pain that dwelt in ev'ry cell.
Mind spinning circles, as my soul felt gaunt,
It swept away the hopes, desires, and want.

And still the bluebirds questioned all as one
The choices that I'd made, the said and done.

I second guessed them all, decisions made,
But couldn't change what was, the game I played.
My bluebirds often told me, yes, indeed,
Of someone who could fill my ev'ry need.

The bluebirds always wanted to be free,
And wanted to deplete the hole in me.

They spoke to me of one who'd show the way
Who'd soothe the fear and take the pain away,
Who'd see what I ignored and keep at bay
The doubt he'd stay for now and ev'ry day.

The first day that we met there was no fear;
Excitement, nervousness, yes, that was clear.
The taunting, teasing, just as in a farce,
You even tickled me, you fucking arse.

To fall in love, not real, upon first sight,
But something clicked in me, to my delight.

Now unbeknown to me you flicked inside
What no one else had moved, what would betide.
Since you had said G'day and grabbed my heart,
Together we should stay, no more apart.

The fire in me has mixed with fire in you,
And unicorns it's not, nor rainbow's hue.

So, holy fuck, the fireworks have spread
With pain inflicted and the words we've said.
You've been a fucking arse, the anger came;
We are not perfect, both of us to blame.

Those bluebirds yet may flutter, fly and dart, 
But you still dwell down deep within my heart.

I owe a huge thank  you and my deepest appreciation to Green_Man (aka Sweet_Man) for taking my words and turning them into what is seen here, thank you now and always.