I wake in a cold sweat.

So many dreams; all focussed on one person.

She invades my dreams, waking and sleeping.

I feel that I must either find her or perish.

Trying to navigate all the myriad possible futures.

Desperately trying not to lose myself in the sands of time.

Searching for my sihaya, my desert spring. 

Trying to drive the future to a safe place.

Searching to meet my future lover.

Or will I end up lost in the madness?

I pray that I find you my love, my life.

I long for my dreams to be realized 

and that the nightmare of solitude ends.