Look to the stars to find just who you are

That same space runs through your veins

Powered by the sun that shines from afar

Burning through the dark and lighting your shame

Up and above you, the fire it dances

Brightness captured in sideways glances

Close your eyes to see if it still makes sense

But what’s found there breaks in to fragments

The pieces are ceasing

to complete this releasing 

of anguish and howling and persistent defeating 

of memories of family and of constantly beating yourself up

   until you chucked it in

      tossed it towards the bin

         bounced it off the rim and you fell instead

Headfirst into the dread

   until you forgot

To look to the stars to find just what you’re not

You wish the shame didn’t ebb through your veins

That the sun would rise and burn it away

But it sits, it endures, like the cloy of your name

Stuck in my throat with only myself to blame.