Just so you know I still love you.

Just so you know.

Waiting for it to come,
the day of final joy,
evermore,
but the pain is not washed away,
waiting,
in the rain,
just so you know.

But you don't know,
because of my shyness,
and fear,
so I sneak a glance,
just a quick look,
to a window,
to a face much adored,
and explored,
with seeking eyes,
and my eyes are wet,
from the rain,
just so you know.

It's my secret deep inside,
never displayed,
not intentionally,
no,
not shown,
not in any way.

But I see it,
there in my deepest,
despairing,
doomed heart,
almost lost,
but I see it,
still mine.

You are my secret, 
and you will be,
for as long as I can live with this hole,
this pit filled with nothingness,
a bottomless chasm of yearning.

Just so you know,
if you ever know,
I am here,
when you seek, when you need, when you yearn,
our joining will be born,
and it will end, 
at last,
with a burst of exuberance and rejoicing,
in exultation,
just so you know.

But the rain is cold,
and draining,
so I must go,
for now.

Just so you know.