You left and I cried tears of blood. My sorrow grows. It's not just that You left. But when You left my eyes went with You. Now, how will I cry?...Rumi

Unspoken emotions emit vibrational frequencies my heart hears
How else to explain that ache in my soul
The blinding and debilitating realization that I knew before I knew
My eyes blink faster and faster
Drying unshed tears of heartaches felt long before my synapses connected the broken dot to dots
Idyllic life cannot remain unscathed
The burden of obligations and pandemonium will always win.

A little I have been. Yes a little naive, a little lost, a little trusting, a little bit of a crazy big lot of broken.
Naming unicorns and painting PowerPoint rainbows
Still giving my presentation well after the boardroom has cleared.
Playtime is over for now.
Time to clean up my mess.
Gathering up my finger paints and twisting the lids tight to keep the color locked all inside
I prefer black and white these days.
And will not mute my mourning with any shades of gray.

The dots connect. The little grows up overnight.
And my eyes blink faster and faster.