Caught in a backlash of love

Left the back door of my heart open

He stepped inside and set me on fire

A riddle of desire I could not deny

Then he vanished like smoke in the night

He changed his mind

He loved me

He hurt me

He left me

A feeling of devastation so blinding real it left my world in cinders

Burned to the ground nothing of me remaining

A burnt out empty shell

I feel this ache to the depths of my soul

This emptiness

This loneliness

This nothingness

This coldness

I feel the ice form

My heart quails in fear as the cold trickles in

A bone deep numbness settles in

Here I am again, bathing in misery

Showering in self doubt

Toweling off in self pity

Stumbling around the flip side of insane

Eye sight blurred with tears like rain

Falling to my knees

My pain so real it has a heart beat of its own

A cruel joke it is to let love in again.