I was almost seventeen when it first happened. When I was sixteen, I joined a teen chat site online. I posted my picture and other stuff on my chart profile for other teens to look at if they wanted to chat to me.
I had been on the site for a little over six months when I got a private message from another chatter. He was a moderator for the rooms, to make sure us teens were behaving ourselves and following the rules.
We got to talking and a few days after that another chatter sent me a private message of a sexual nature. The moderator I had talked to the day before was also in the room, and I sent him a private message telling him that the other chatter had sent me a sexually explicit message.
The moderator said to me, “Tell me what they said.”
“Well,” I told him, “I'm a little uncomfortable saying it.”
“If I am going to do anything about it, I will need you to tell me exactly what they said.”
“He wanted me to view his cam and watch him jack off and cum for me.”
The moderator asked, “And what did you tell him?”
“I didn't respond,” I replied. “I just closed the chat window and blocked him.”
The moderator, whose chat name was Boss, said, “I see. So, you didn't want to watch him jack off and cum for you on his cam?”
When I didn't answer his question, he became more insistent, “So, you did want to watch him on his cam?”
I couldn't believe what I said next, “Yes, I did. But I didn't want to get into trouble and get kicked off the chat site for viewing it.”
“Are you interested in guys?”
I don't know why, but for some reason I was answering Boss’s questions truthfully.
“I am attracted to boys, but I’ve never done anything with them. I love watching them in the shower after gym class.”
Boss’s chat profile said he was fifty years old and lived about an hour away from me. As we talked, one thing led to another, and the next thing I knew he was asking, “Have you ever dressed in girl's clothes?”
Again, I was honest with my answer, “Yes, I do, but I’ve never gone out in public wearing girl's clothes. I just stay in my room.”
“Tell me what size shirt and pants you wear.”
I didn’t hesitate. I typed my sizes into the chat box to him. Next, he said, “Now give me your address. I want to send you some things.”
I know I shouldn't have done it, but I couldn't help myself. I quickly typed my home address into the chat box for him.
“I'm going to go buy you some girly things,” he told me, “and send them to you. I want you to put them on and model them for me on your webcam, OK?”
My heart was pounding so fast. I didn't know if it was from being excited or scared. I knew I didn't know anything about this ‘Boss’ guy, or what kind of a guy he was, but I didn't care. No man had ever talked to me like this before… and I liked it.
“I'll send them first-class mail, so you'll get them pretty quick,” he said.
“I can hardly wait.”
We chatted for a little while and exchanged phone numbers. Boss said he wanted to hear my voice on the phone. He said we couldn't talk on the phone right now, because it was time for his wife to be getting home from work.
I had a dildo in my dresser drawer and I went over and got it. Then I quickly undressed and started sucking the dildo. I imagined it was Boss’s cock. I had only used the dildo to suck on, imagining it was one of the boys' cocks from school when I sucked it. I had never used it to fuck myself.
I logged into the chat room, but Boss wasn't on. None of the other chatters talked to me. That was ok. I only wanted to talk to Boss anyway. I was on for about an hour, then I logged off for the rest of the day.
The next morning, I made sure to check the mail before Mom got it. I don't know how I would have explained girls' clothes coming to the house addressed to me.