After weeks in which our affair has mostly been conducted by sexting and the odd phone call, at long last, you get the keys to your new house and are able to move out of your parents' place, and we finally have a venue to act out some of the fantasies we have been talking about. Fantasies of simply fucking each other senseless in every way we can think of, and fantasies of you spanking and dominating me.
We both arrange annual leave one weekday, as pretending to go to work is the easiest way for me to be out of the house for any length of time without having to think of convoluted excuses that my husband might see through. This gives us a whole long day in which to indulge ourselves. Having had negligible face-to-face contact with one another up to now, I do wonder how we might handle this amount of time together, but there's only one way to find out. On the day, instead of getting the train to work, I catch a bus to the suburb you live in. The address you've given me turns out to be a small terraced house, one of the ones where the front door opens directly into the living room. I ring the doorbell, feeling nervous. Not only is this the first time we've spent more than a few minutes together face to face, but it's the first time we've met in daylight and sober. What if we don't fancy each other?
You let me in, and we embrace, somewhat awkwardly. This is our first proper kiss. 'Well,' I say, 'this is a weird situation. You agree that it is. It doesn't help that it's 9.30 a.m. on a Thursday morning and I'm in my work clothes; some times of the week are just inherently more sexy than others.
"Do you want to do this?" you ask me, sensing my anxiety.
"Yes." My stomach is churning, but I'm not going to let nerves get the better of me now. I've been fantasising about this moment for so long. Since the first time I saw you, months before we even met.
"Well, OK, then," you say, pulling me towards you for another kiss, deeper and more assured than the first. Suddenly, you grab a handful of my hair and pull my head back, looking at me intently. "Who do you belong to?"
"You, John."
"Take your clothes off, slut, I want to look at you—no, hang on a sec...." You get up to adjust the blind. "Don't want the whole street getting an eyeful." This mundane moment somewhat dissipates the non-sexual tension in the room. There's still plenty of the sexual sort floating about. Underneath all the stomach butterflies, I realise I am actually extremely aroused.
You sit down on the sofa, and I stand in front of you and take my clothes off, dropping them to the floor. I try to peel things off slowly to make it more seductive, but I don't attempt anything fancy, as I'd probably just end up looking stupid. Finally, I drop my knickers and kick them to one side.
You appraise my body without saying anything about whether you like it or not, but I'm not too worried about this. Although I'm a bit better covered than I used to be, I have good proportions, still go in and out in all the right places, and I'm quite toned from daily yoga practice. Not bad for my age.
"Turn around. Then you can bend over and pick up those clothes; I don't like mess.”
The room we are in is not, in fact, all that tidy. There are a couple of moving crates still to be unpacked, stacked against a wall; clutter on various surfaces; a jumble of toys in the corner. One of the things you have told me about yourself in the course of all our messaging is that you have seven and five-year-old daughters, now living in Birmingham with your ex since the divorce, who come to stay with you some weekends and during school holidays. "I miss them so much," you had said to me, in an uncharacteristic display of vulnerability.
Still, I'm not about to argue and spoil the game (or maybe I should, to get punished). "Yes, John." I bend over to give you the view you want, and pick up my things.
"You can put them on the chair over there, then get down on your hands and knees."
"Yes, John."
You have me face away from you, then take off your belt and lash me hard on the bottom.
"That's for being a slutty, dirty little bitch." You thwack me six more times. The stinging pain feels good, and makes me gasp, although it's not as much as I think I could handle. You have to be careful not to leave marks that my husband could see. "Sluts like you need to be taught a lesson." The belt lashes against me several more times, catching the tops of my thighs. "Now, say thank you for your punishment."
"Thank you, John."
Next, you pull down your jeans and boxers, and order me to suck your cock. I do as I am told, working my lips over the head, and then taking you as deep as I can into my throat without choking, using my hand lower down. Before you come, you push my head away. "Look at me and tell me you're gagging for me to fuck you. I want you to absolutely beg me for it."
"Please, will you fuck me, John," I say. "Please don't make me wait any longer; I want you so much, I'm desperate to feel you inside me." This is all entirely true, of course.
"Oh, go on, then," you say, grinning, making out like you aren't also gagging for it, so that we both come out of role, and start giggling. This stuff is pretty funny, objectively speaking. You have me sit on your lap, facing away from you. Then you give it to me, slowly at first, then harder and faster.
You pull my hair again, forcing my head around towards you. "Tell me how much you love being fucked by me, slut."
"I love it so much, John, it feels so good!" I'm not lying this time, either. It feels even better than I'd imagined it would.
After we finish fucking, I ask if I can use the bathroom. I half think you might refuse, try to make me wait—something that would definitely be a safe-word situation for me. I crave to be controlled in some ways, but that isn't one of them. But in any case, you say I have your permission.
I start to stand up, but you say, "No, on your hands and knees." I crawl to the doorway and slowly make my way up the narrow, steep stairs, while you stand at the bottom to make sure I don't cheat.
While in the bathroom with the door shut, I take the opportunity to have a quick snoop. There's one adult toothbrush and two child-sized ones, and no evidence in the contents of the bathroom cabinet of an adult female being a regular presence in the house. I feel relieved that at least only one of us is apparently being unfaithful.
Then I come back downstairs, which is trickier than going up. I have to come down backwards. You are still standing at the bottom of the stairs, arms folded, with an amused look on your face. When I get to the bottom, you order me back up again, saying, "I've got a mind to tie you to my bed, and have you again, wench."
I crawl back up, and you instruct me to kneel in the middle of the bed. You tie my hands to the bedstead and put a blindfold on me. I note that you seem to have the stuff you need handy in a drawer of your bedside cabinet. Preparation for me in particular, or just for your sex life in general? My forearms and head are pushed into the pillows, my back is arched, and my bum is up in the air.
I hear you undress, and then you kneel beside me, running your hands up and down my body—over my tits, my back, my arse, my thighs, my cunt. Not being able to see you, or touch you back, makes your caresses feel incredibly erotic and intense. Every stroke sends shivers through me and pulses of pleasure into my pussy, until I am moaning and writhing under your hands.
You lick my neck just under and behind my earlobe, and whisper in my ear, "You're mine to do what I want with, slut. And now I'm going to have to spank you. And then I'm going to have to fuck you. It's only what you deserve, waggling your cunt at me like that, you little whore."
You give me some good, hard slaps on the bottom, with your hand this time. I love how this feels, how exciting I find the sensation of pain, the way my pussy tightens each time your hand makes contact with my flesh. Then, you enter me from behind, at first grinding into me, and then thrusting into me hard, and it feels just as good as the first time. I tell you how much I love having your cock in me, tell you to fuck me hard, and I mean it, and you do. After a while, though, it becomes clear you aren't going to cum, so you pull out. It's just too soon after you did before.
"To be continued later, I think." You untie my hands, and I take off the blindfold. We lie down and kiss a bit. "Did you like that?"