As she waited in her car, Brenda couldn't believe she was here again. Her short, shallow breathing and rapid heartbeat evidence of her apprehension.
My God. I'm a happily married wife and mother, why can't I stop doing this?
Brenda was the prototype Soccer Mom. She was thirty-three-years-old, married ten years, living in the suburbs with a nine-year-old son and seven-year-old daughter. Her husband was just what she dreamed about as a girl. Loving, handsome, dedicated to her and the kids, a good provider, he genuinely enjoyed being a family man. She appeared to be totally absorbed in the lifestyle of a stay-at-home Mom. She filled her days driving kids to school in the morning, keeping the house just right, volunteering to work at a number of charities and civic groups, picking up the kids in the afternoon and shuttling them to after-school activities.
But appearances can be deceiving. Here she was again. Down deep she knew why. There was great passion with her husband during their courtship and early in their marriage. Bill was a good lover: gentle, considerate. never demanding, always trying to fulfill her needs. A few months after they were married, she was pregnant with Bill Jr and things started to change. It was a difficult pregnancy and, after her son was born, it seemed there was never time for intimacy. She fell into the Mom routine, continuing to the birth of her daughter and beyond.
Now the kids were older, whenever she and her husband found time for sex it was only behind a locked bedroom door with the emphasis on being quiet so the kids wouldn't hear.
At five foot seven and 135 pounds, Brenda kept herself fit and, without bragging, she thought she had a nice body. It's true her figure had changed since having kids. She was quite slender when she was younger, now she had a woman's figure. At 36C-28-38 Brenda could best be described as voluptuous, and by most men, very desirable. Brenda felt like she was wasting away in a dull sex life. Then she started meeting... Him.
There was nothing dull about the meetings with him. As long as she could remember, Brenda had had fantasies involving strong men. When she was younger she dreamed of being swept off her feet. As she grew older the fantasies changed to being taken by a man. She never thought she could tell anyone how she felt, certainly not her husband. Then she told Him.
He questioned her about the specific details of her fantasies. Embarrassed about what she really wanted, Brenda tried to be vague. As they went on, it turned into an interrogation. He made her answer just by the force of his personality. Then he began to take control.
At first Brenda thought he was just doing what she wanted. Then she realized he was using the knowledge to take advantage of her and use her as he pleased. He constantly took Brenda to new limits. Some of the things he did Brenda had fantasized about since she was a teenager. Others she never dreamed of.
He was anything but gentle and considerate. The things he did were rough, sometimes degrading, even painful. She couldn't explain why the things he demanded gave her such pleasure, such ecstasy. She only knew she didn't want him to stop.
Today he had said nothing about how Brenda should dress. Sometimes, he instructed her to wear specific clothes and lingerie, but not today. Brenda was dressed like a suburban soccer mom: white short sleeve button down blouse and a light blue skirt. The skirt was snug but not too tight, above the knee but not too short.