“I wonder if he will really see the new me…the changed me,” I think to myself. Life had not been the easiest for me until I met you, and until that point, I had chosen to play the victim and retreat so that no one could touch me…..touch my mind or soul. Sure, sex was good….but it was just that….sex. Nothing more, nothing less. The intimate times came few and far in between, and I pulled away each time someone tried to get close. I just couldn’t bear the thought of letting anyone in.
As I pull into your driveway and turn off the car, I take a deep breathe to try to settle my nerves. I want this time to be the one….the one where I give you all of me…every last part….mind, body, and soul.
Pulling the key out of the ignition, I open the door and step out into the cool air. Walking the short distance to your door, I tell myself that this WILL be the day….WILL be the time…that I show you just how much you truly mean to me. It’s now or never and I’ll be damned if I am going to lose this last opportunity to become your kitten.
Looking in the window, I catch my first glimpse of you in nearly a month. You’re sitting at your computer, obviously solving a last minute work issue. I stand there for a minute, admiring your body. Your blue jeans cover those long, strong legs. Your long sleeved shirt covers those strong arms that I long to hold me. But your face has a very serious look on it. There is frustration and tension there. I smile, knowing that in just a few minutes, all that will be wiped away by the intimacy we will share.
Knocking on your door, you turn…startled by the noise. A big smile crosses your face and you open the door, pulling me into your arms. You have no idea how good it feels to be back in your arms. You hit the garage button and then close the door, locking it behind you. Grabbing my hand in yours, you lead me to the bedroom…the one that we have shared a few times before…but not like we will share it today.
As always, we begin to undress….each taking off our clothes. Once you are fully undressed, you walk around the bed to the other side….crawling into your crisp blue sheets laying on your back…waiting for me to crawl into your arms. You watch me finish undressing, slowly and steady. But, my next move puzzles you. Instead of crawling in bed beside you and nuzzling to your neck, I drop to my knees beside your bed and put my hands behind my back.
Looking down at me in amazement, you move to lie on your stomach across the bed. Reaching out with your hands, you lovingly cup my cheeks in your hands.
Before you can speak, I look into your eyes and say, “I am yours, Sir. Do with me as you please.”
“Are you sure this is what you want, Michelle. Like I have told you before, once you become my kitten….you will be mine for life.”
“David, I love you more than words can say….more than actions can begin to show. Please let me show you how much you mean to me….how much I crave you….how I truly want you to become by Master for life.”
“Very well…we shall see,” you say as you rise and walk to the closet. I dare not follow you with my eyes. I know if I do, I will be in trouble.
Walking back to the side of the bed, you position yourself to sit on the side of it. Looking at your hand, I can see that you have your belt. Holding the open ends together, you grab the middle with your other hand and pull the belt sides flat, making a very loud cracking sound. After several times doing this, you see the fear in my face and notice that my body is trembling, though not a sound comes from my lips. A smile crosses your face.
“Crawl closer to me, kitten.”
I crawl the very short distance until I am positioned between your legs….my shoulders pushing between your knees. You reach down and grab my throat with your strong hand pulling me up taller on my knees. I close my eyes but stretch as tall as I can for you. I feel your hand leave my throat only to feel a slap across my face….not a hard one…but one that definitely gets my attention. My eyes fly open and I stare straight at your face.
“Don’t you dare try to hide, kitten. Today is the day…the day that the old you leaves forever….never to return. Do you understand?”
Taking in a deep breath, I respond by saying, “Yes, Sir.