I'm a 48 year old bi-curious sometime cross-dresser. I live outside Charlotte NC, and I have been married for 17 years in a sexless marriage. While I have not come out to my wife, I did spend a good amount of time testing the waters so to speak on how she feels about men in women's clothing. I have to seriously hide who I am sexually from her, as I'm sure the marriage would end if she knew I have a softer more girly side I like to explore from time to time. One of these days, I know I will cross from fantasy to reality and find a nice looking bi-sexual guy who likes to have sex with a non-passable cross-dresser. And then I don't know what will happen to the marriage. I have never been with a man before, but I am interested if the right situation came along. I've tried a couple adds on CL, but only got replies from weirdos, or people thinking I'm some kind of hooker. Not the types I'm looking for I assure you.

As I am a rather big guy (6' and about 250#, and I wear a 48" suit jacket) there will never be any hiding the fact that I am a man. Even though I appear to be a big buy on the outside, I'm quite small where it counts (only 4" hard), which might explain why it is so easy for me to find comfort in dressing up in pretty lace and fantasize that I am a sexy girl waiting to please her man. I keep my hair long and when I let it out of it's pony tail, women stare at it lustfully. I have very thick, naturally curly hair that comes to below my bra strap by a couple of inches.

Oh, and how I love toys! Thanks to a false back to the un-used linen closet in the bathroom, I have easy access to my favorites. Most of the time alone in the evenings, I will have a 4" to 8" dildo or butt plug up my ass. How it turns me on! When I'm feeling really brave, I'll also have on a sexy pair of low cut panties (selected to not show at the back if I bend over and my shirt rides up), and maybe even a pair of hold up stockings! What my wife would do if she ever knew!!

About the sex. Even when dating, she never had any problem with my 4" dick. Of course everyone has heard it's not the size of the ship, but the motion in the ocean. I have had several lovers before my wife and no one complained. While it is small, I am quite thick, and I learned early on to know exactly when I was about to pull out too far to not be able to make it back in on the next thrust. Think of a Coke can - it's 5" tall, I'm 4" tall. It's 2 3/4" wide, I'm 2 1/2" wide. But when it's soft, it damn near disappears! So hiding it in my panties is not a problem. I have even talked to her about what she thinks of cuckolding. She finds that as revolting as cross-dressing. I would even be willing to be her cuckold and take care her and another man, but I'm sure that will never happen.

I like to talk about sex, fantasies, and girly things in chat. I can go both ways as a guy or a gal, but I much rather be submissive in either role. Feel free to whisper to me if you want. As long as you are respectful, I'll be happy to talk to you (as long as I'm not already busy )