Echoing a lot already posted here - and frankly I have no perspective to give advice. I can't even put myself in your position though I was madly in love with my first lover who passed away very suddenly. I would however offer up an opinion and take it with an ocean full of salt. Be with her when she needs you the most and think what would you have liked if the situation was reversed. Lush is a great release - enjoy it and when you do find yourself available again, explore.
ultimately its the person u are and everyone has different preferences and like every era has its definition of beauty. Beauty really is in the eye of the beholder and for I prefer men with hair and not really into manscaped men. Heck, in Victorian times I would be considered undesirable because they preferred plumper full figures at that time.
I have been with black men and really enjoyed it but no more than my trysts with men of other colors. I do not go along with the adage as it like alludes to size which frankly has little to do with how good a lover someone is and even with size I believe black men, like other men are normal and to be honest large penises hurt. I have been with tall men who have proportionately larger penises and thank god they knew how to use it. Its no fun if a guy is well endowed and a lousy lover.
vaginal for sure but yeah at times with the right guy anal is cool
32B wish at times i was a C but am not changing anything so am happy
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