I just want a someone like a mother figure always been fascinated by women with kids and how they glow and just want to be held and suck tits and get a good hand job or someone that has mommy experience to help diaper me cuddle with me maybe sex but someone to talk too about life stuff i do wear diapers cause of an injury and a surgery that went wrong i just find myself in a real struggling spot i always master bated from like age 12 or maybe earlier i always like girls bums too not sure why but i quit smoking and drinking and drugs since march 7th i stuggle with being sexually abused by kids at school everyday sometimes 3 times a day then was by 2 different men when i was 17 and 18 i just feel so lost i wish my dad was still alive he might give me some advice i wont ask my mom for her input cause she caused alot of issues for me she didnt tell me about my real dad till i was either 19 or 20 i had asked when i was 17 in jail she lied to me im just a basket case mess almost 50 and just excisited in life not lived life i think i lived life for 3 years then my dad died and a very good friend of mine died 3 weeks after