Been in the closet for soo soo many years. it started out very innocent, and has grown to become a very important and passionate part of my life. Its not about lingerie, its more about how feminine i feel when i am dressed up. I feel more at ease, rested, and less stressful. Its hard to explain, but during those special little moments, i am more happy and at peace with myself.

At this point in my life, when a look at a gorgeous women, my perspective is wanting to be her (not with her), I find my self enthralled examining her hair styles, evaluating their use of makeup, what type of manicure and pedicure they have... i enjoy relating with their sense of style on fashionable attire.. And above all their shoes are an absolute fetish.

I consider, myself straight, but when i am dressed up, i am strangely attracted to other gentlemen. I dont know how to explain it beyond that. Its very challanging balancing my normal life, with my deepest desires.

My wife would never understand, i know that, and we are still very much in love. I only want her to be happy, feel desirable, and safe. Deep down i know that i am not making her feel as desirable and satisfied as she should deserve. I have started to be drawn to learning more about cuckolding and perhaps there is a solution in there somewhere.

It seems that with each passing day, i get a little bit more daring (shopping for shoes, dresses, makeup..) It definately is exhilerating and one of my greatest passions. I have ony been out in public once dressed up. it was a most thrilling and sensual moment.

Do you know how i feel? if so i would luv to chat with you.

Interests
Shopping for shoes, dresses, lingerie, makeup, earing. Giving my self pedicures and manicures. Long sensual bubble baths with soft music and flickering candle light.