I started crossdressing at a very early age, starting with my sister's panties and slips. As I grew, I graduated to wearing my mom's panties, girdles, nylons, slips, dresses, and heels. At this juncture, I was enamored with the feel of the clothing and the bonkers that this brought on. It was a very personal and self centered activity, having no thoughts of sex with anyone other than myself.
It remained this way until early adulthood. Then I discovered porn. I would look at the pictures of couples engaged in sex and read the stories in Penthouse Forum and imagine myself in the females place while I was dressed in my female attire.
It wasn't until my mid to late thirties that I started to go out at night as Linda and playing with sex toys... Still alone. I became aware of a local "Girl's Club" and started attending. One of my best friends at the club let me dress at her house to get ready for club meetings. After one particular meeting, we ended up getting intimate and gave each other blow jobs. It was interesting that I didn't feel particularly guilty afterwards. I viewed it more as validating my femininity. A few months later I was with another "sister" and she performed anal sex on me. Again, I saw it as validation of my girly nature.
We ended up going to one of the local adult movie theaters to "entertain the troops" from time to time. We would give many blow jobs and occasionally let some lucky guy fuck us in the ass. I soon realized that I was definitely bisexual and a confirmed bottom. I had no problem sticking my dick in a warm juicy pussy or letting a hungry mouth fellate me, but I had no interest in sticking in anyone's ass. I love pleasing my partner (male or female) orally. If I'm with a man, I have to be in female attire and taking the female role or it just doesn't happen.
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