I like men, particularly older men. I like that they are strong and confident and seem to be more dominant.

So even though my fantasies here revolve around old men, in real life, I meet older men and just don't usually find them attractive and don't want to flirt, etc. So how to fulfill my fantasy of being one's toy?

My dream is to get to know someone online a bit, and go visit him. With a very clear agreement in place that if I travel to him, he can use me however he wants (but no piss, blood, etc). He'd have to know I might get cold feet and I agree ahead of time to him using me regardless

That way even if I show up and I'm not into him/it, he'll still get a week or two's pleasure and I'll have served an old man like I always dreamed. If I end up loving it, great. If I don't at least I know and at least an older man (who clearly deserves to) got to have fun.
This could also maybe work by inviting an older gent to visit me, too.

Please don't ask me to message you anywhere but here in the first day or two of exchanging some messages. I am not comfortable with that, at least early on.

Favorite Books
Great Expectations, The Poisonwood Bible, The Master and Margarita

Favorite Authors
Kingsolver, Proulx, Atwood

Favorite Movies
Moana, Shaun of the Dead

Favorite TV Shows
Glow, Russian Doll, Bob's Burgers

Favorite Music
all kinds