I've always been a writer and a roleplayer (basically, collaborative writing on the internet). Then two years ago, I ventured into sexual roleplaying and ultimately erotic fiction. I'm 21.
You're only attached because of the security. Just cut the line and let go. People pine over detrimental relationships all the time because humans like security.
Awesome stuff. Love your biography, too. One of the most humbling quotes out there goes something like "It's a shame youth is wasted on the young."