Yes, to the point where REEALLY slow and passionate does nothing for me. I don't like the movie kind where he sweeps me off my feet and does it but in a more angry, raging style. Then afterwards I like to cuddle up and be cute.
In the evening like at around 8pm so not at night but not in the day.
Always been a screamer. Since the very first time, I've been the loudest girl my bf has been with XD
Swallow..... my guy tastes good and tbh its to much effort to find somewhere to spit.
I'm bi and about three years ago, I got really close and friendly with an older girl, she became my best friend for about a year. One day she came to town and we joked the entire time about sex and being together. She came over to my house then one thing led to another and I ended up getting tied up and turned on, she made me feel very special and showed interest in me and I wanted to ask her out. A few weeks later I went to a summer camp and she went to Reading Festival. I spent time at summer camp collecting advice about being into both sexes and if I should be honest with my feelings or not and after a few days, I was ready to confess. I was going to tell her my feelings the day when I came back. And the evening before I came back one of her friends asked her out and she said yes......... she texted me and told me. I told her I liked her and that I felt special when she was with me and she told me that she did it to all her friends......... I felt like total crap, I tried to talk to her about how I felt and she completely disregarded my feelings, I had a massive argument with her and we didn't speak after that. So I tried to completely bury my desires for the same sex.
A few months later, I still liked her and (very stupidly) tried to make the peace and just be her friend. I didn't have her number anymore so I reached out to the person who asked her out. I asked her to relay a message for me but it turned out that she wasn't on good terms with the girl either. They had broken up after like a month. So I came to the conclusion that I was right about the girl being a total ass.
I began talking to this other girl through the internet and felt a connection. I met her in real life and felt the same desires towards her as well but I tried my hardest to suppress it deep deep down because I didn't want to get hurt again. She started to like me too but kept messing me about and giving me mixed signals about whether she liked me or not and was just generally a very toxic person to be around. Would always give me backhanded compliments and everytime I was around her, I would feel sad, nervous, insecure and just all round crappy. I still felt physical desires for her but nothing else.
One day I stayed round her house and even slept in the same bed and she still gave me no indication that she was interested. The next day, a boy she had told me loads about and who had heard loads about me (who is my current bf), came over. Around him, he would make me feel warm, happy and protected in the first ten minutes of meeting me, when someone I had been attracted to for a year was making me feel really bad about myself and THEY WERE IN THE SAME ROOM. Me and this boy really hit it off and I mean REALLY hit it off. It was like we had known each other for AGES and we had a lot in common. I found myself feeling emotional desires for him and a month after that the physical desires soon followed. I told the girl that I liked him and she offered me his number and I kept denying it but she practically FORCED me to take it so me and the boy got flirting over text and he very quickly became my bf.
I got her blessing for it and on the surface seemed very okay with it. Oddly okay with it in fact.
A few months into the relationship my bf noticed that I looked at girls with the same gaze that he did and he picked up on the fact that my love for girls was not strictly platonic. I wanted to test this theory once and for all so I ended up in a three way with her and my bf. It felt amazing because I was actually finally with a girl but at the same time...... it was honestly horrible. She as an individual was a terrible kisser, nothing special naked and didn't really want to do........ anything much. Even asked us to play Lord Of the Rings in the background (which I LOVE a good LOTR marathon myself but not very sexy in the BEDROOM.) To be honest, I much preferred my experience with the girl before.
It happened a second time and long story short, she eventually went behind my back and tried to break us up then when I confronted her, she didn't seem to care at all and looking back on it, she seemed like a very sociopathic person. No sense of guilt, no saying sorry. The last thing she wrote to me when I confronted her was "grrrreeeat. *eye roll*" then never messaged me again.......
My bf and I are very happy together. But I know I like the same sex.
What are the symptoms of Body Dysmorphic Disorder? I fear I might have it......
To be honest, I'm only 18. And I have a boyfriend. I'm only starting to really figure out what I like. After a while I realized that what I liked wasn't "vanilla" so I started to search for it and I heard about this thing called BDSM. Honestly? I don't know much about the community at all (as far as other people go) I only know about me and what I know and like. I confessed to my boyfriend a while back that I liked it so we tried it and he realized that he was into it as well. So now we're just trying to figure everything out together and research together and to be honest, if you're as young as me..... I think that's the best way to go. Because being my age and going aimlessly looking for a dom is a very easy way to make myself a target for abuse and a lot of people will know that its easy to fuck me about and (as the poster before me said) PRETEND that certain things in the community are "normal". So I'm REALLY grateful to be in a situation where I'm with somebody who's as much a newbie as I am.
