I'm not used to making most decisions for myself. Most were made for me most of my life. I'm here to see if I can find more of myself. The pictures on my page are all things that I would like to experience at some point. Grew up extremely sheltered from how the world really works. In most ways I guess I still don't know. I live a simple life, work a lot, and seem to be turned on most of the time. I got a computer only two years ago. I don't understand why we want certain things when we are turned on that we would not dream of wanting when we are not. I know the more I get used, the more I crave it. I've met up with a couple guys from here. I still don't know how to think about it other than I'm glad it happened. It's hard for me to say no because I want so much to be wanted.

I suppose I'm not so much looking for people who are "right" as I am for people who are honest with who they are. I'm finding that I would rather be with the "wrong" people who are also honest about it, than to be with the "right" people who practice hypocrisy. I seem to be attracted to people with dark and hidden secrets. I have mine.

I don't want to be any one person's sub, but I do love having my body used and being degraded now that I've experienced it. I've experienced being caned and flogged For punishment As well as sexual abuse in my community. I'm not into the, " yes master". I'm looking for more reality but I'd like to try being tied up and forced. I've been pretty much controlled by men my whole life. I've discovered I very much am in to women too. But I find it hard to say no to guys. Especially older ones. I'd love to be with an older woman. That would be amazing. But the longer I'm on here the more perverted I seem to be becoming.And the more attractive perverted people seem to be to me. Maybe I'm curious to know what secrets lie in the darkness.In the community I grew up in it was forbidden for any man to even touch a woman, even casually. I've since discovered that guys in the real world like to touch me or "grope" me. I REALLY like that. I guess from a life of never being hugged or touched in a kind manner.  I dont do online video but I would like to hook up in person with people I hit it off with. I did pick up smoking when I left my community and liked it. It was . I've enjoyed talking to people who call themselves "perverts". I'm nonjudgmental to a fault. I appreciate honesty more than anything. 

I'm essentially a bedpan nurse at an assisted living facility. I love my job. It's much harder now with Covid-19

Interests
Self discovery. Running towards my fears. Freedom can be a scary thing when the cage that held you is removed. I like to read, meet new people, and help wherever I can. I've never felt more "needy" in my life after leaving my Amish community. But I had to. Few things are more painful than this loneliness. I have a lot of "deep throat" pics on my page. I'm fascinated by it and want to one day be really good at it. It's harder than it looks. I practice with a rubber one. Guys seem to really like it. I'm not up on all the trends and news but don't mistake that for being unintelligent. I am a smart girl. Just not as real world experienced. I'm getting better

Favorite Books
lots