Confused.
The very first time I remember thinking, "What do I do?" - I was absolutely no good at it (and I'm not even being modest, he told me to not bother anymore - braces with rubber bands and teeth just weren't his thing. LOL)
The first time for the next guy - I did better, I remember thinking whether or not his piercings made it hurt or feel better. (at least he didn't tell me to stop, so I guess I was nervous that it would end like the first time)
The third guy - I think I was too drunk to think, I remember very little. I do remember his name, though - so that's a step forward.
My ex - ah - he was small, there wasn't much to think about (that was probably my thought, too)
My husband - I said exactly what was on my mind, "You have a gorgeous cock." - because he does, and then I told him, "I'm not very good at it." . . . and later he told me I was a filthy liar. . . and that was even before I figured out the deep throat thing.
I was grateful for having watched a few pornos and as BelleduJour said, I was more than ready.
I was scared, aroused and worried but I was oh so ready and I was good! lol
Was drunk, but I remember thinking, well here goes nothing!
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It was just, "Here goes nothing." I knew if I thought too much about it, I wouldn't do it.
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I was a bit scared, apprehensive, intimidated and subjected to a lot of pressure to do it beforehand. He manhandled me, fucked my mouth and at the last moment held my head tightly and made me swallow his cum.
I probably should have been disgusted by what to some may have been an awful experience but I have to be honest and say I was very aroused by it
The first time I went down on a guy it was just confusion. "Am I doing this right? When he is going to cum? Will I have to swallow it?"
"He wants me to put that where? No chance" this was what went through my head but found it to be okay and not too daunting of a task.
OMG am I really going to do this.?
Definitely aroused, and my thoughts I am so going to make you mine! lol
honestly, i had no thoughts when i gave for the first time
I hope my parents don't wake up. Lol
"i wonder if i turned the oven off. oh, i should have cleaned the catbox too. have to make sure i do it later."
You can’t truly call yourself peaceful unless you are capable of violence. If you’re not capable of violence, you’re not peaceful. You’re harmless.
Of all our inventions for mass communication, 
Did not do much for my mood and sucking his weenie. The visual still haunts...is that too strong of a word?...nah...still HAUNTS me. 
