I miss the smile you give me

Miss the cute little responses

The enthusiasm you showed when we spoke

We were friends, but I caught the feelings.

When everything is going good, you have to expect a fall,

But I didn’t see this coming.

And now, you don’t want to even smile or look at me.

Wondering what went wrong, my mind started to race

I just thought it was a phase, because we had a disagreement.

But yeah I was wrong, again!

You stopped responding; turn away like I was Satan.

It hurt me that you wouldn’t tell me, rather ignore

We were friends, but I caught the feelings.

Twice, I wanted to let you know how I felt

But decided otherwise; you needed a friend.

And here I stand looking at you, while you ignore my existence.

I cough up the courage, to ask what’s wrong.

Why are you so mad at me? I ask with the same beaming smile

You stare and try to ignore saying that you are not.

I persuade in knowing the reason, comes the response which broke my heart

Friends don’t call me babe and that’s the second time, you said

My heart stopped, mind racing to think what to say.

I pause, I smile and all I could say was you know I apologized for that.

She stared me down and continued with her work.

You know what I wanted to say, babe.

I am sorry, we were friends but I caught the feelings

I am not like your ex, your mom nor your brothers,

But I am sorry I ask many questions too.

I know you only wanted a friend

But I am sorry I caught the feelings

I am sure you still don’t know how I exactly feel about you

You may think, oh another fuck boy

But I am sorry I am not one amongst them

I always wanted to make you smile,

The smile that’s etched in my brain cells

I know you only wanted a friend

But I am sorry I caught the feelings

People might say move on, I have said the same.

But I just realized it’s easier said than done

I know things might get better between us,

But I am sorry I have to bury my feelings

To make you smile and laugh again

Cause you see me as friend, but I caught the feelings.

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Adi