Zak is reflecting upon his thoughts and how he sees himself. He has not talked about what has shaped him. He knows what he likes.

My flight was canceled due to weather and I was going to stay another night after the conference. I was looking forward to being in bed with Kristen.

After the closing session, I went back to my room to shower. I let the water flow over my body as I grabbed the soap. It was instinct that I had the lather on my dick and started to masturbate. I was sticking out and my balls were up tight against the base of my dick. I was at the point of shooting, but I stopped.

I thought about phone sex with Kristen, but I was going to delay until later.

I dried off and wrapped myself in a robe and got on the bed. I had the remote to surf for an adult movie with men. I was in the mood for some male action. I cannot commit that I am a homosexual because I like dicks. I am drawn to circumcised dicks. I evaluate a dick when it is hard, and a well-defined head is the sexy part.

What makes my heart beat fast is holding a hard dick in my hand and opening my mouth to wrap my lips around the head. The sensation of sucking the head is electric. The next move is sliding the rest of the shaft into my mouth to feel the hardness and the warmth. It takes a few back and forth motions to draw out pre-cum. I can apply the pressure with my lips while sucking to get the cum flowing.

The other side of my personality is I like pussy. When I see a female, my eyes are drawn to the legs first, and then I move up. The well defined and muscular legs create the excitement and when they are in stockings it is another level. I like breasts in the 32-36 range but I'm not a fan of the larger ones. The perfect body is one that is in proportion. I can class myself as bisexual.

I had the opportunity to enjoy male companionship in the military on a six-month deployment to Guam. This was when you did not talk about sexual orientation. A person who was gay had to exercise caution.

I lived in a two-story concrete barracks which was built in 1943. There were more guys than the building could hold. We had to use all the available space. I was able to place my bunk in a secluded corner. I had blankets hanging from all sides to provide privacy. I worked six days a week. The barracks were always crowded in the evening, which cut down on privacy.

After a couple of weeks, a night shift position became available. Working at night gave me privacy during the day.

It was difficult walking around seeing naked guys and a variety of dicks of different colors and sizes. There were a few I wanted to grab and jerk off. Some of the dicks looked delicious and needed to be sucked. I have never found the right words to describe a dick. The head on one guy always caught my attention and I think he knew it. I saw him a few times pulling on his dick while looking at me. I was too afraid to do anything.

After two weeks of not jacking off, I was horny. I took my shower later in the morning and used a stall out of view. I had my back turned and lathered my dick and stroked until it was fully erect sticking up against my stomach. The longer I did it, the more I wanted to scream. I did wish I got caught. I would welcome the opportunity to have a jack-off buddy. I jacked off and shot off against the wall and watched my cum slide down. It felt good seeing my cum shooting out.

I saw a guy with a semi-hard dick and a swollen head; I knew he had just finished jacking off. I tried no to stare. I would get looks because I had a bald pubic area.

One morning I was shaving and the guy next to me reached over and put his hand above my dick to feel how smooth it felt. I could not control myself and I started to get hard. I did not say anything, but I wanted him to grab my dick and jack it off. It would have felt good having another hand holding my dick.

I would go out late at night when I was off into the courtyard. I would wear loose-fitting shorts so I could pull my dick out of the leg and start stroking. It felt good having a breeze over my balls while masturbating. There was always an element of getting caught. I would shoot off on the ground.

I decided to change my routine and jack off in my bed. I had privacy because everyone was at work. I would sleep in the nude and into the third week, I had my dick greased up. I heard footsteps and I froze. The steps were getting closer. I did not move. My blanket on the far side moved slightly and a hand came underneath, and it was patting the bed. The hand came in contact with my thigh and I moved up until it was on my dick, which felt electric.

The hand started to jack me off with an up and down motion. I started to move my hips like I was trying to fuck his hand. I did not want to know who it was. The feeling was intense, and I did not want it to stop. The gripping of my dick got me hard and the stroking was getting faster.

The mystery guy was being quiet.

I had to keep my voice low to contain my excitement. I had no idea what was going to happen when I started to shoot my cum.

“Oh shit. Fuck! Make me cum, please. Make me feel good. Uhmm.”

I was trying to be quiet. I rolled on my side, but I did want to look at his hand. I did not care who was jacking me off. I was ready to cum. My ass got tight and my legs got stiff.

I saw the blanket move and a head came under the blanket and I felt lips wrap around my dick and start sucking right as I was cuummiinngg. I jerked a few times with each strong squirt. I wanted to scream. I was holding tight on his head and grinding my hips. Every drop of my cum was sucked out.

“Agghhh. Yes. Suck faster. Eat all my cum. Oh yes.”

I waited until I heard the person walk away. I did not get out of bed to investigate. I slept like a baby after having been sucked off so well.

I decided to stop jacking myself off. I waited for my mystery guy. A few days later as I was lying in bed, I heard the steps. My dick started to get hard. I rolled on my side and I felt the soft hand reach for my dick. I was greased for the stroking session. The stroking was going slowly up and down while he was applying pressure.

I did not care if I was sucked off or not. I just wanted to cum. I could feel my balls up tights against the base of my seven-inch dick.

“Please. Yes. Make me cum. I want to cum so bad. Oh, yes! Fuck.”

Just like before, my dick was in a wet warm place. I released three hard squirts of cum. I felt the suction on my dick. After a few minutes, my dick slipped from his lips and he left.

When I walked in the shower area I would look at the naked guys, trying to figure out who was sucking my dick. I tried not to stare because I would start to get an erection.

A few days later, I was in position with my dick sticking up and ready. The anticipation had me nervous and I shot off shortly after I was in his mouth. He sucked until I stopped squirting. The corner of my blanket was pulled back and I could see something was being pushed in. I reached up and felt something smooth and warm. It was his hard dick and it was covered with a sticky substance.

I got on my knees and moved closer to his dick. I realized what the sticky substance was. He had put my cum on his dick. It was sexy and I got excited. I wasted no time getting his dick in my mouth. I was eager to taste his cum. My lips were sliding back and forth. I felt his balls move and I knew my prize was on the way. I pulled his cheeks closer so I could get more of his dick in my mouth.

The feeling of having his dick sliding back and forth was amazing. The thought of getting caught raised the level of excitement. My hand slipped between his legs to feel his tight asshole. His skin was soft and smooth. I wanted to taste his hot cum shooting in my mouth.

I felt his cheeks jerk and a hard shot of warm cum hit the back of my throat. There were four more spurts. This guy must have saved up a month's supply. I could not swallow fast enough. His cum was trickling down the side of my face.

“Oh, yes! Fuck! Suck my dick! Eat all my cum! Yes. Yes,” said my mystery man.

When he pulled his dick out, cum was dripping down my chin. I was left with the mess to clean up.

While enjoying the memory of the past, I had developed a hard dick. My jerking off was minutes away.

There was a knock at the door.

I answered the door and a good-looking guy six-feet with shoulder-length hair was standing there.

“Hello, my name is Leon.”

“Leon, you can put the tray over on the table.”

I reached for the pen to sign for the order and my robe fell open. Leon looked down and saw my semi-hard dick.

“I hope I did not interrupt anything. You have a pretty dick and I love that you are hairless. It is not every day that I deliver food and get a treat,” said Leon.

“I feel so embarrassed standing here in front of you with my dick showing.”

Leon came closer and reached out to touch my dick and I started to get hard.

“Zak, I can help you with whatever you have in mind. Your dick looks delicious. I want to experience how it feels to have hot cum shooting into my mouth. I want you to be my first,” said Leon.

I watched Leon remove his clothing. His body was well-toned and he had muscular legs. I looked between his legs and saw his limp dick. It was beautiful and no two dicks look alike. I was fascinated by how his head was shaped and the length. He did not have any body hair. I did have the urge to ask him to spread his cheeks so I could peek at his anal opening.

"Leon, how big is your dick when it’s hard?”

“I am eight inches fully erect. Girls when they see it they do not let me fuck them. They usually jack me off. I masturbate a lot, so I do not walk around with a hard-on."

“Leon, come here and lie on the bed. Looking at you is getting me horny. I see your dick is getting excited.”

I dropped my robe and got beside Leon on the bed. I grabbed his dick to squeeze out a drop of lubricant. I took my finger to rub it across his head. I placed the lube on his lips. I used my tongue to spread it across his lips. Leon opened his mouth and I started to suck on his tongue.

The more I kissed him, the hornier I was getting. I ran my fingers through his hair. I knew he was getting excited as he started to gyrate his hips.

“Leon, your lips are so soft, and I can’t stop kissing you. Your lips taste better with your lube on them. Have you ever tasted yourself before?”

“I came in my mouth once and it was salty,” said Leon.

“Did you ever think that you would be kissing another guy and having one suck your dick?”

“The desire has crossed my mind. I go to the gym five days a week and in the locker room, guys are naked. You cannot walk around and not wonder about guys. I like to go along with what I feel. I feel like being with you,” said Leon.

I kissed down Leon’s chest and stomach. I placed two hands on his dick, and I watched as it began to swell. It was amazing watching it get hard like blowing up a balloon. Once his dick was hard, I could not resist the urge to take the head in my mouth.

“Oh, Leon, you feel so good in my mouth. You must like this. I can taste your lubricant and I want to taste your cum. How long has it been since you squirted?”

“It has been a week. I like to build up and go without. I cum with more force when I wait. It feels awesome seeing my cum shooting in a stream,” said Leon.

I sat up and straddled his legs. I had both hands wrapped around his dick and I started stroking.

“Fuck! You feel rock hard. I do not want you to shoot off now. I want to play with your dick and suck it. Ummmm. You are juicy, Leon.”

Leon was pushing his hips up to my face while I was sucking.

“Suck my dick. I want to cum so bad. Please let me cum in your mouth. I can’t hold out much longer,” said Leon.

“I don’t want you to cum in my mouth.”

“Sounds like I am going to get my wish. I hope your tight little ass can take my dick,” said Leon.

Leon’s dick popped out of my mouth. I rose off Leon and oiled his dick. I gave Leon the oil and turned to face the opposite direction.

“Leon, take the oil and get my tight hole ready. Use your finger to rub slowly around the rim and push a finger in. Yes! Play with my ass. It feels so good. I want to feel your cock sliding into my tight ass. You need to take it easy with your big dick.”

I turned back around and was squatting over his dick.

“Zak, I have my head at your ass, it feels good. I hope I can fit in there. This is exciting and looking at your ass makes me wish I had tried this earlier,” said Leon.

I reached down and had both hands on his dick. I lifted my hips and Leon’s dick was at my opening and I could feel the head pressing against my tight hole.

“Fuck! Feels good,” said Leon.

I lowered my hips to get the head into my ass. It felt so good going in and I stopped.

“Oh, Leon. Fuck! Your head is big. Please go easy so I can enjoy this. Push your hips up slowly so I can feel every inch. Agghhhh. Yes. I have never had anything this big in my ass.”

Leon gave a slow push as I consumed his entire dick. I felt full and horny.

“Fuck me slow. Pull out and push back in. That is it, Leon, feels so good.”

“Oh fuck. Oh fuck. Zak, your muscles are gripping my dick. This is so intense, and I am not going to last long. Yes! Yes! I have to stop. Oh no! Not yet. I cannot cum yet. What are you doing with your muscles?” said Leon.

“I am just flexing my muscles to get your dick excited. Your dick feels so good in me. Fuck me, Leon. You are my fuck buddy and make me feel good.

“Leon pull your head out of my ass and slowly push just the head back in. Shit! It feels wonderful. Yes! Do it a few more times. Agghh! Fuck. So good.”

The feeling was intense each time his head was pushed in. The rim of his dick felt electric and I wanted him to fuck me hard.

I felt that Leon’s dick was ready to release. I could feel his massive dick twitching in my ass. He was going to squirt all his built-up cum deep in my ass.

“Leon, do it, baby. Fuck me! Give me your cum! Let it go. Fill my ass. Do you like fucking me? Do I feel good to you?”

“Zak, yes. Fuck! Fuck! Agghh. I am cuummiinngg. Oh damn. I cannot hold it. So good, Zak. Zak, make your ass grip my dick,” said Leon.

There was a strong release, Leon was grunting, and he jerked up three hard times and lifted his hips off the bed and raised me. I almost fell over. I could feel his cum each time he squirted.

“Leon! Fuck me, baby! Give me all of your cum. Push your dick in deeper. Give it all to me. Please. Please. Your dick feels so good up in me.”

Leon tensed up so tight he was shaking.

“Relax and breathe, Leon.”

Leon was breathing heavily and sweating, and he dropped back onto the bed.

“I know now what I have been missing by not fucking guys. This is too good, and I have to do this more often,” said Leon.

“Hold on. Every ass is not as good as mine. You just had the best.”

“Zak, I can help you with that,” said Leon.

My dick was pointing at Leon. There was clear lube dripping from the tip of my dick. I rose up from Leon and was kneeling over his stomach. There was cum dripping from my ass.

“My God, Leon! It is a wonder your dick did not explode in me. You need to empty your dick more often.”

I scooped his cum into my hand and put it in my mouth to taste. The salty fluid was delicious. I did not swallow but shared it with Leon. I asked him to open his mouth and let his cum drip out into his. I was in a nasty mood. We locked our lips to enjoy his cum. I watched Leon swallow his cum.

“Zak, can you go and sit down in the chair? It is time that I do something for you. You will be the first guy I suck off. I am anxious to feel a hard dick in my mouth. After fucking you I want more. I cannot get over how good my dick felt with your ass gripping it. Fuck!” said Leon.

I sat down in the chair and Leon got between my legs. He took my dick by the base and his tongue went across the head several times. He opened his mouth then engulfed just my head. He was sucking my head while applying pressure to my shaft. There were several motions of him, moving his lips, just playing with my head.

“Leon, this does not feel like it is your first time. Fuck. Suck me good. I want to give you my hot cum.”

“Sucking your dick is better than I thought. I cannot wait to feel you cum in my mouth. Oh fuck! Yes, feeling your hard dick in my mouth is wonderful,” said Leon.

“Oh yeah. Fuck, Leon. Yes. Suck my dick good. Make me feel good.”

“I want to feel you shoot your sticky cum into my mouth. Your dick is twitching. Make this special for my first load of cum,” said Leon.

Leon kept moving his lips up and down. He would stop and jerk me a few times. The tension was building up in my balls. I was ready to cum.

“Oh fuck. You taste so good. I want you to cum,” said Leon.

“Zak, I know you are ready. Your pre-cum tastes good. I see your balls are tight against the base of your dick. I can feel your head pulsating,” said Leon.

“Oh, Leon. Fuck now! I am cuummiinngg. I cannot hold it. Agghhh. Yes!! Make me cum. So good. Yes!”

My cheeks tightened and my legs were extended out. I had risen off the chair. I had my legs upon his shoulders.

“I want all your cum, Zak. I want to taste you. Shoot off in my mouth. Yes! I want more. Give it all to me,” said Leon.

“Zak, sorry, but I did not save you anything. Your cum was squirting so fast and I was trying to swallow as much as I could,” said Leon.

There was a drop of my cum on Leon’s cheek and I leaned up and licked it off.

We both went to the shower and rubbed our bodies together one last time. Leon got dressed to leave.

I had Leon pinned against the wall in a deep kiss. I stepped back and looked into his eyes.

“I will miss kissing your soft lips. I know I should not feel this excited, but I do.”

“Zak, I am going to miss you. You have opened my eyes and showed me how wonderful it can be with another guy,” said Leon.

I watched Leon walk out of the door. I will have a wonderful memory.