Do you understand the pain I feel?
Do you know it? 
You were going to be the one.
We were going to be perfect…
So perfect...
I have always 
Secretly loved you. 
I know You loved me too.
Unrestrained joy
Sparkled in our eyes.
The future beckoned us. 
 
Revealing my misgivings
Gave them unyielding life. 
I wish I’d kept them
under lock and key.
An unshakable fear
Spirited me away from you.
I worked so hard to
Slay the demons. 
I thought I had more time
to escape.
Why didn’t I seize the day?
 
I see you everywhere. 
You’re still with me
In every moment.
My lip quivers,
My vision mists. 
I’m compelled to reach out.
I want to feel your heart
Just once more. 
The realisation that I can’t 
because
you’re not mine,
Stabs my heaving chest.
I can’t breathe.
I can’t see.
 
I can feel and,
I can weep.  
My mind wanders 
And I remember...
Your charm drew me in, 
Your brilliance captured me.  
The merciless need and greed
For each other 
Smouldered constantly.
Your sweet lips 
Savoured my ambrosia. 
Your warm, sculpted body  
Debauched and claimed me. 
I belonged to you.

It’s painful to know
Our journey is over. 
For now,
I will look back only once,
And respectfully,
But regretfully,
Walk away.
I hope we meet again
some day soon.
I love you,
I always have,
I always will.

This is a work of fiction. Resemblance to any persons is coincidental.