CindyUSA
I am not sure if I should be embarrassed, ashamed, depressed about my condition. I do not look unwell; does it show? I look normal to my wife, family and co-workers. I wonder if they know about my disorder. If they had, why did they not tell me? Like most illness, they start slow and build up and suddenly, bang; right between the eyes it hits you. Maybe for years I suspected, but not wanting to admit that to me. I did not think my condition was serious, but I wanted to keep it a secret.
My secret is I am bisexual. Being bisexual is not a mental disorder or illness in itself. How can cock sucking or eating pussy be illness? My bisexuality developed a little fetish; I like to dress in woman clothes when I meet a man for sex. For the last five years, I believed I was just a normal cross-dresser. An article on line about the psychology of cross-dressing stating anyone who dresses in the clothes of the opposite sex is classified as a transvestite. Transvestite is sexual disorder as describe in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders DSM-IV.
Admit tingly I am a Transvestite, because I achieve sexual excitement by cross-dressing. Transvestite can dress for two different reasons; First reason would be to seek to intensify sexual excitement in intercourse. This is the reasons I dress. The second reason someone dresses as a woman if the person show signs of gender identity problem.
Transvestites are not necessarily homosexual, with many straight men only meeting females. Many straight men who dress have no desire to meet a bisexual or gay man. My fetish did not start until I was an adult and in my 50s. I dressed for the first time when I met a stranger for sex. Craigslist is an excellent place to post a personal advertisement to meet someone. My post was to the personal for Orlando, Fl under the erotic encounters, and meeting male for male. My post was short and to the point, 53married white male seeks male to give head, nothing in return. A few days pasted when I received an email from a stranger from San Diego.
His email stated, "Hi my name is Ray 35 straight white married, and will be visiting Orlando in a few weeks. I saw your post in Craigslist and wanted to know if you would like to meet. I am a straight man and not looking to give a blowjob, just appreciate my cock sucked. Hope that you would like to meet."
When meeting strangers from the Internet I like to exchange a few emails to make sure the man is serious about meeting, and that he is not a wacko person. Exchanging a few emails and asking a few questions, you should be able to decide if you like-minded and should meet. Wanting to make sure you are what the other person is seeking, making sure there will be no disappointment.
I responded, "Ray's thanks for your email and interest. I am interested in meeting you. I am fifty-three years old, 5'-10" and 210 pounds, about twenty-five pounds heavy but not fat. I am clean-shaven, short gray hair, glasses. I would like to make sure you are OK with my age and my height to weight, Roger." I have talked to many men on-line and, some had an issue with age and with the overweight. Some men are seeking a 'Ten' to let them suck their cock. I like to think I am a 'Three' to 'Five', on a 'Ten' scale. I might not stand out with admirable looks; many men said I gave excellent oral service.
I like meeting men and being their fantasy. Many straight, married men like to receive oral intercourse. With their eyes shut, they do not mind if it is a male or female giving them head. I am also a man and think I know what men like, a fantastic blowjob and then cumming in a warm, wet mouth, having the other person swallow your load. I offer a man a service, free of charge. I will suck their cocks, and they climax in my mouth then tell me to swallow.
Rays next email back said, "Roger, I do not care about your age or your weight; I need someone to suck my cock. My motel room will be available on Friday evening. Do you know any transvestite? I always had a fantasy about meeting a chick with a dick." Asking if I knew a Tranny was a strange question. It sounded that Ray wanted a threesome.
My next email to Ray, "Ray I do not know any she-males, but I can check around and will let you know. I had this need to suck a chick with a dick, or even maybe bend over and fucked by one."
Ray responded, "Roger did not know you were a bottom. It would be hot to fuck the. She-male while she blows you then watch her fuck you as you blow."
Ray and I were exchanging several emails daily. After exchanging phone numbers, my phone rings at work. It is Ray; I steeped outside for some privacy. First question after hello, Ray said, "Do you swallow or spit?" That was a direct question from Ray, but I understood why he is asking.
I responded boastfully, "I like letting a man shoot off in my mouth and having him tell me to swallow his load." By the sound of his voice, he seemed please with my answer.
Ray continued, "Good; I am a straight man, and not interested in sucking any cock. I like the sound of your posting you are what I need." Ray continued his questions; he asked, "Did you find a chick with a dick yet?" I received his email last late last night and had not started looking for a Tranny.
I responded, "No, not yet; I will check Craigslist today. You know that most she-males charge money. I am willing to split the cost with you."
Ray scoffed, "No, not fine. I do not pay to get my rocks off. You need to find a chick with a dick to meet us, and one that does not charge. I fancy seeing the Tranny sucking your cock; I take her from the rear. Then I would like to see her cock fucking your man-cunt." Ray was graphic about what he wanted. From our conservation, it appeared the sight of a man in woman clothes turned on Ray.
Remembering a few years back, I met a man and a Tranny for some wild, passionate sex. If Ray wanted a threesome, I was going make that happen. After Ray's phone call, I started my search on Craigslist for a chick with a dick. I found several in the local area, sending them all an email. The next day, I received an email from Crystal, a thirty-five year-old transvestite with silicone breasts. Crystal lived about thirty miles from the town I was living in. Crystal provided her phone number to call confirming our meeting arrangements. When I called her, it rang six times, and I wondered if I had the correct phone number. Finally, when someone answered the phone, I said, "Crystal, Roger."
Crystal answered in a low, soft whisper, "Oh, hi sweetie; so nice of you to call. What can I do for you?"
Not wanting to catch her at a bad time, so I asked, "Crystal, is this a good time to talk?"
Crystal replied, "Sure Roger; I just got out of bed and fixed my first cup of coffee."
The conversation was going as planned, I continued, "So, are you OK meeting Ray and me on Friday night?"
Crystal stretching her words, "Oh yes sweetie; both of my holes loved to be filled."
I began to be excited about having a threesome with Ray and Crystal, but needed to check one thing, not sure how to ask I blurted, "Crystal, do you charge when you meet someone?"
Crystal replied, "Oh no sweetie; I am always free."
Glad that Crystal was not a professional, and that she was what Ray was seeking, I replied, "Great Crystal, Ray and I are not looking for a professional, just someone who likes to meet men and indulge in some fun."
Crystal responded, "I love having fun, and with the two of you, there are more possibilities. I am versatile. Why don't you two meet me at my place, where I keep my things?" Crystal said with a playful sound in her voice. Crystal continues, "Now Ray is the straight guy who wants to fuck me and you are a bottom which likes to give head?"
I responded, "Yes that sums it up and I also like to give head."
The meeting scheduled for seven PM at Crystal's house on Friday night. I sent Ray a text message giving him Crystal's facts. 'Thirty-five TV, 40D, seven inches cut, versatile.' Crystal provided a photograph that showed that she has large silicone boobs and a male member, a chick with something extra. Ray was all excited about meeting Crystal. The plan to meet as threesome was set.
On the Thursday evening, Ray called saying, "Roger, bad news, my meeting has been postponed. I now will be arriving on Monday."
I said, "No problem Ray, I will reschedule."
I called Crystal to update her on the change of Ray's arrival date. She apologized, but she was going to be out of town on Monday and could not change her plans. I called Ray back, and I told him, "Ray; Crystal will be out of town on Monday night. She cannot change her plans. Looks likes is going to be, you and me."
Ray, in an upset and loud voice, said, "Roger, you will come up with another She-male."
Taken aback from his outburst and demand, I said, "I have tried, I can not find one available. I did find one, but she wants two hundred dollars an hour.
Ray retorted, "I am not paying for anyone's service; I desire to meet a cock sucking she-male slut, or cross-dresser will do."
I apologized for not being able to meet his needs, "I have looked on Squirt and on Craigslist, and I'm telling you on short notice, I can't find someone." I started to be perturbed with his demand, and in frustration, I said, "Look, what you asking me to do, wear pantyhose for you?"
Ray paused, with a devilish sound in his voice he said, "Yeah, you do that, you dress up for me."
I was jesting; I was not inclined to play dress up for anyone, not even Ray. I tried to talk my way out of his demands. I said in protest, "Right, What are you kidding? I have never dressed, ever. You have to be crazy to see me in pantyhose. Ray, I don't own any pantyhose to wear."
Ray insisted, "Well, go out and buy some pantyhose. While you are at it, get a matching bra and panty set. Make it something sexy."
I continued to offer every objection not to dress, but Ray continued to press the demand.