Lush to me
I came to this site, with nothing in mind
but to read some stories , and have a good time
I didn't come often at first, as I read others online,
but the more I came back, the content was really fine
I check out profiles, from my same state
I get a few responses and think hey this is great.
I see some comments from them to other friends
about chatrooms and and how much fun it depends
I go to one room, and scan the surroundings
I see others having fun and laughing and corresponding
But since I'm new, I just go and sit and watch
cause a newbie is not always nothing but a botch
I go to another and am well greeted
I think this is great and ill stay seated
I saw people come and saw them go
wishing i'd had the confidence to just say hello
you see I am shy with low self esteem
and low self confidence that I try to redeem
they make me feel special, like I am one of them
it feels good to fit in , even though they are the gem
I watch the pics posted, and the videos played
I see some so real and some that are portrayed
I become more friendly with a few
I tell them my story and how sometimes I'm blue
they seem to care and try to cheer me up
I think they are special and not a coverup
I see them come online and as they pass by
I think its just normal to poke or say hi
but I find out after a while, that's not always the case
they are just wanting to sit back and have some space
You see I've always understood that the ones that are here on the net
is a person not a thing and should be treated as such and not be upset
The longer it goes though I wonder sometimes
if I really fit in at all or if I am worth a dime
I am more than willing to sit and converse and chat
with friends that are upset and feel like a doormat
I take time and effort with them just as in real life
yes its the internet and they can run off like wildlife
I say what I am, and I am nothing more
than a ole farm boy and sometimes a bore
I don't have to chat about sex to have a good time
that's just one facet of a person not their lifetime
I let things bother me that others would shrug off
as being on a site you need to just castoff
I really don't understand though some of the contradiction
since some say it was the same for them the same impression
they say you know how I feel that you have been there too
but you do the same thing to me, that they did to you
but its life and things like that sometimes happen
whether we want it to or whether we wish for some fiction
what it really comes down to is a persons outlook on different things
how much they may feel unwanted or counting their blessings
everyone down deep want to feel special to someone as such
whether it be real life or your friends that are online right here on Lush
Active Ink Slinger
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