Project Semi Colon: Lush Style

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It's odd how triggers work? Sprite is right, Honeydipped, you are never alone.

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I can't have kids of my own. I do have a God Daughter, and she is kind of named after me. Her first name, is my middle name, my middle is her first. She is my life, she just said her first word. It was my Puppy's name. Drake, named after the third Robin. I know I have to be there for her, someone has to make her Nerdy. This is a great topic, I just hope the semi colon tattoo does not become some trendy BS. So many things, that should have a deep powerful meaning becomes a trend. After that, it looses its meaning.

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Tim was my favorite as well, mostly because Steph Brown was in his solo comic. (yeah, i can be a bit nerdy about some things too. ). i know what you mean - i'd hate to walk into a target and see it on tees or backpacks and stuff. still, those it has meaning for, it will always have meaning for. i bet you make a great godmother, nerdy *hugs* make sure she learns how to play video games with you!

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I hope Sprite won't mind, but I'm going to post one song here. ONLY BECAUSE one of the social workers who was in charge of the VA run PTSD group I regularly attend who happens to suffer from PTSD herself told us that she thinks of it as being the "PTSD Theme Song"

Know this, none of us IS either a rock nor an island; we are ALL each and everyone of us... flesh and blood human beings. SO, when the depression starts, when the fears, night mares and all of those other symptoms we all know only too well begin...REACH OUT! If only to someone here, one of those you've identified as being one of the TRULY loving and caring people here. You don't NEED to leave the safety of your "bunker". Nor, do you have to TRY to "tough it out alone" anymore, or self medicate at who knows what risk.

You will only BE alone... if you CHOOSE to be. It doesn't have to be that way. Don't allow this condition we share to win... you DESERVE to win, not this damnedable condition. Whether you need a hug or need to be held, listened to or whatever will help you...REACH OUT! You DO have people here who DO CARE... if nowhere else. But, we can only help you IF, you let us.

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I hope Sprite won't mind, but I'm going to post one song here. ONLY BECAUSE one of the social workers who was in charge of the VA run PTSD group I regularly attend who happens to suffer from PTSD herself told us that she thinks of it as being the "PTSD Theme Song"

Know this, none of us IS either a rock nor an island; we are ALL each and everyone of us... flesh and blood human beings. SO, when the depression starts, when the fears, night mares and all of those other symptoms we all know only too well begin...REACH OUT! If only to someone here, one of those you've identified as being one of the TRULY loving and caring people here. You don't NEED to leave the safety of your "bunker". Nor, do you have to TRY to "tough it out alone" anymore, or self medicate at who knows what risk.

You will only BE alone... if you CHOOSE to be. It doesn't have to be that way. Don't allow this condition we share to win... you DESERVE to win, not this damnedable condition. Whether you need a hug or need to be held, listened to or whatever will help you...REACH OUT! You DO have people here who DO CARE... if nowhere else. But, we can only help you IF, you let us.

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. Thank you for your service, and welcome home

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Thank you... and you're welcome.

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I wrote this up, recently, in the mod thread. Nicola suggested I share it with a larger audience, so here it is - there was a lot of incredibly personal stuff, beyond what follows, btw, that i felt wise to edit out, but the meat, as they say, is still here.

First off, Project semi colon can be found here:

http://www.projectsemicolon.com/

A few things, that some of you, myself included, might take pause at - it's faith based, meaning it has close ties to Christianity. That said, I like the idea enough to share the link - it might not be for everyone, but the idea of it is worthy. here goes...

Among other things, i am employed as a part time volunteer at an LGBT center. One of the kids today - yes, I am old enough to call them kids now - time to start drinking - one of the teens I work with had a semi-colon tattoo on his wrist. What's that, i wondered out loud. are you a writer?

Project semi-colon. I think I'd heard the name once. A semi colon is a pause. Apparently it was taken up by some people and became a thing - a pause, a story not finished. He showed me his scars, too. one on each wrist. We are all writers, even those who don't write. We all have a story to tell. Sometimes, though, people get to the point where they put down the pen and try to end it too early. It's a reminder, he tells me, that there's more to his story. I like the idea. I am planning on doing a little research into the project when time permits. I may even get my own tat. For now, I've drawn one on my left wrist. It's blue. I like blue. The dot bit and the comma are separated by a scar...

You can learn from anyone if you keep an open mind and just listen. Listening, is key, btw. Most of us just need to know that someone is listening. That's something else I get here. I know that I can find someone to listen when I really need it, whether in the forums, or one on one. I asked him about his story. He shared it. It's his though, and not mine. He asked me about mine, and I shared as well and he just listened. Simple as that. It felt good. It went something like this;

Shortly before New Years last year, I tried to kill myself. I have suffered from insomnia peppered by nightmares since I was 21. The last couple of years have been particularly bad. PTSD isn't fun to deal with. I just wanted to close my eyes and know that I could sleep in peace for one night. Figured the only way to do that, really, was to off myself. It wasn't one of the smartest things I've ever done. It almost wrecked my marriage. It almost destroyed a very precious friendship, and it derailed my new found career as a student. I am, currently, struggling again, and may very well go back on meds until I feel I can deal with it on my own. I don't like having to do that, but we have to do lots of things we don't like to keep ourselves healthy. Like eating broccoli... yuck. :)

I still have those thoughts from time to time. I still feel alone, even knowing I am surrounded by people who love me. We all have those moments. I am sharing my story here, but really, this is not about me. This is about all of you; of us. You are not alone. Ever. You all have beautiful stories that need to be finished. You all have people who care about you. Anytime any of you need someone to just listen, just say so. Sometimes it's hard to start talking - this wasn't easy, trust me, but once you do, you forget about it. You need to talk, talk. We all have shit that we go through, have gone through, will go through. None of it is trivial and it's never a contest. Even the "little things" that get to you can still loom large in your life.

This was hard, btw, coming out. I have only told a couple of people here my story. But I am glad I finally got the courage to do it. And, if you don't feel comfy doing it here, remember, people who love you are surround you, if you just open your eyes. reach out to them, to friends and family. Reach out to the community. You'd be surprised at the stories people here have beyond what we publish.

And, when someone reaches out to you, take a moment, a pause, if you will, to listen, to nod, to tell them that yeah, you get it, that you understand. Just listen. It's so very easy, it takes so little time and effort, and yet, it means so much.

xo
rachel

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Two years, ago this past March. I was a freshman in college, and had a deep betrayal by someone I thought was a friend. That along with college pressure, I tried to kill myself. I spent two months in the psyche ward. while there, my older brother told me that I was nothing but a disappointment, that he is ashamed of me. Sprite honey, and everyone else. You are not alone. You have people that care. Yes you have ass holes, but they will make you stronger. Once again, I love all of y'all, and there is not a damn thing you can do about it.

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i was in psych eval for 3 days. 2 months... just... i can't even imagine. *hugs* you know, i'm not always the nicest person in here, i can be an asshole myself at times, that's an honest assessment, but fuck, anyone who goes through that, who bounces back, who keeps going, isn't a disappointment and has nothing to be ashamed of. screw your brother. you have plenty to be proud by keeping it going, girl.

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Two years, ago this past March. I was a freshman in college, and had a deep betrayal by someone I thought was a friend. That along with college pressure, I tried to kill myself. I spent two months in the psyche ward. while there, my older brother told me that I was nothing but a disappointment, that he is ashamed of me. Sprite honey, and everyone else. You are not alone. You have people that care. Yes you have ass holes, but they will make you stronger. Once again, I love all of y'all, and there is not a damn thing you can do about it.

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wow... that's some pretty heavy stuff to deal with at that age. first off, nix anything that your family has to say. sometimes they can be our biggest critics. you're a kick ass chick who will go on to kick more ass! as you've stated, you have TONS of ppl around you who support you.




i just wanted to drop this off and wish everyone a great week! ?y

nia?

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How has everyone been doing?

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doing okay. i have a month off between classes right now, so i'm trying to keep myself busy. still on meds, which are good for my mood, and bad for my creativity. hope you're doing well, yourself, Ms Castle

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What happened to Castle? She is gone? Hope she is okay?