In my stories, I am often very deliberately confronting my personal demons, revealing much about how my brain works and displaying my insecurities and complexes. Perhaps that is scaring away the potentially curious. I haven't had any "fans" probing for more intimate knowledge of me, but I don't have many followers or friends and I'm not sure if that's personal or because my stories don't inspire them. Maybe I've done something to alienate even the harmless among the curious, which is not intentional, but I do have to protect my privacy.
Apart from the first story I had published on Lush, there is a piece of me in every story and I know that some think I reveal too much of myself through my writing. As others have said, I don't reveal my whole self in my stories, I show certain pieces of me, like the nervous girl talking to herself and she's walking to meet the man who may become her Master, the girl who swears at herself out of frustration, or the horny girl who loves sex and likes a man to take control. I don't think that my stories reveal more of me than I'm willing to share with most people I talk to.
I'm getting pickier about who I'm willing to open myself up to. 90% of people who get in touch will find out very little about me, that special 10% find out more and maybe half of them will get to know more than one side of me.
When I write I have my starting position in mind, from there the story develops, usually not quite in the way I first imagined it. My stories have some basis in reality, there's some personal experience, embellishment, imagination and a bit of fantasy thrown in too. I write what I know, it's too much of a struggle to write something unknown, although, I may try it one day.
And yes, I too get the, 'I loved your story, I'd love to get to know you better' messages, it's the same as above, my response depends how it's been worded, what mood I'm in and what their profile is like.
Sorry this is so rushed I'm running late for work!
Okay, I know I am going to sound all pretentious and whatnot, but I guess that is a part of me.
For me, great writing is about the person behind the words, rather than simply just the narrative tale unfolding before me. One of my constant criticisms of much erotica is that it consists of cliched storytelling and two dimensional characters. When I read great fiction, whether classic or contemporary, I find the author revealed through their work ... you simply cannot read Austen, Chandler, Hardy, Faulkner, (et al) and the thousands of brilliant contempoarary authors without coming to understand some of what are the issues that rattle around inside their brain. For me, writing erotica involves similar contemplative thought and through all of my writing (both poetic and prose) I am always looking to communicate some aspects of my character and some of the issues that infiltrate my musings.
So yes, in brief, you can find me or elements of me in all my writings.
Having said all of that, I am an exceedingly private person (something that is as true of me in real life as it is here) and I feel no obligation to provide anyone with any details about me or to answer questions that I dont wish to answer (photographs and geographic location are automatic No's). But I have developed many relationships that I value highly here and those are only achieved by both individuals opening themselves up and offerring information about themselves ... and for those close friends I am prepared to chatter endlessly about the humdrum existence of my day to day life ... even if they would prefer that I didn't.
Yes, you should have a hazard label on you, "warning CG will be your every fantasy"
That was very well put, redlips.
When I originally answered the question, I was thinking in terms of what a reader might learn about my own personal sexual proclivities and practices in my writing, which is very little. However, I agree with others that one could piece together a fair amount about my personality by carefully reading what I've written.
There is a little of me in everything i write. For my stories, they are purely my imaginations, but they do reflect some fantasies in my mind sometimes. As to my poems, they probably contain more of me.
I'm been approached by readers who would like to know me, or discuss about writings. In either case, I'm happy to make new friends, but I'd like to keep things in the friend zone.
I've never claimed, or planned to be a writer.
I came to read.
If I had never been affected in one way or another, by this place.. Lush, I never would have written.
For me it is a release on paper.
I am admittedly very controlled and would never IRL voice as much emotion as I would through limericks.
They may not be completely accurate or even that good, but the character, humour and emotion is me, relating to something that has affected, or made me think in one way or another.
I do however like to play with what I write, and give it it a twist or edge.
I am entirely bare when I write, I have no clue if that's for the better or worse.
Certainly, my writing (content and form) is, in many ways, an expression of who I am and, sometimes, who I want to be seen as. That isn't to say my stories are about me (often far from it, in fact) but the shrewd read could learn a little about the "real" me from each one. You're never going to extract my life story from my work but you might just get the slightest glimpse into Clum.
I've been told my writing is quite "upfront". I imagine this means that people can fairly easily believe that they are derived from personal experience. I do try to write relatively realistic stories in so far as they could happen to someone like me. Even some of my most "honest"-sounding work is drawn completely from my imagination (I think everyone who read my story on StoriesSpace thought it was true). I don't (for the most part) write about myself but it's inevitable that little bits of me escape onto the page.
Each of the main characters in my stories (all male, thus far) have elements of my own personality but not one of them is me (Smokin' Aces aside). By doing this, I can "know" the character better and predict his reactions better. Perhaps (this just occurred to me) I invent characters as images of who I want to be seen as, how I want my readers to think of me. In our writing, we are allowed to paint a picture of the character and I suppose, on some level, we sometimes make that character an idealised version of ourselves. But I digress.
I am quite happy to share the "real" me with anyone who is genuinely interested enough to find out. I don't offer up "revelations" to my "fans" (not that I really have any) but I don't hide who I am or pretend to be the characters in my stories. I answer questions as appropriate; you get to know me on a "deserve-to-know" basis.
Poetry is similar for me. It's not usually a pouring from the heart but just something I created. I have four poems on Lush; two are complete fiction although have been suspected of being true, one is truly from my heart and one is silly fun (but still, in a manner of speaking, true). I'm not a poet and therefore my poems reveal very little about the "real" me; they're just another way to write the same drivel I usually write in prose.
Is that what you were asking, Shy? I may have dozed off half-way through the OP.
P.S. I usually give my stories a Scottish element (most are set in Scotland and have Scottish characters, even if I don't explicitly say that) so read into that what you will.
this is an interesting question... but first of all i have to say that Frank_Lee is an enigma but mostly he is full of ...... well you know... lol...
everything i write has a bit of me in it... the stories are all written from my point of view but not necessarily about real events... sometimes not even about things in a fantasy... they are just stories... ideas...
my poems are more emotional because they are based on real longings or fears... but they are still just stories as well... there are some that were written with someone particular in mind... i do have to say that when i write them i feel every moment that i write about... i find that a little scary and hope it doesn't mean i am insane.
i do find that people contact me and act like the longings and fears are something they can do something about.... i find that a little disconcerting even though it is sweet...
shylass... does this answer your question?
I guess that in some ways they are one in the same. I write a lot of truth into my stories.
My characters lead a much more exciting life than I do.
However, there are pieces of my personality in them. In order to make a story feel alive to a reader, I think the characters have to be accessible to the writer. The writer needs to be able to put herself in the place of the characters, whether it be through personal experience or the intuition that comes from observation.
Big-haired Bitch/Personality Hire
From personal experience, I think writing expands the imagination. You just have to take a moment to step outside of yourself. I mean, at some point we all think something we do is absolute and complete crap. No matter how many people tell you otherwise. I don't think it's false modesty, but it's just something that comes along with the territory. But I digress. Back to my initial point about writing expanding the imagination. Like many others, I'm sure, I didn't come to Lush to write. Hell, I didn't even come to make friends...or fill in the blank spaces of my profile...or to post on forums...or join chatrooms. I only came here to read some kinky stories. Everything else just sort of happened without my realizing it.
And with a little nudge, I started converting a real-life experience to a literary opus. It may not have been the greatest work, perhaps not even good. But it's mine, and simply writing it is a big deal for me. And now that I've managed to do that, all sorts of characters are popping into my head. Me and the people I've been with are being replaced with strangers I have yet to get to know experiencing things that I have yet to experience. But I'd like to get to know them and their story. But the only way I can do this is by writing it all down.
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The only story I have posted on here was written to titillate the reader, but contained a hotchpotch of things that had really happened. I have a few follow ups but they increasingly contain less and less reality and more and more are written to arouse (or at least entertain) others. However, that probably says more about me than the actual words in the story!
I have written poetry as well but I would never put it on here as it is too personal. I generally only do it when I am really down or really angry and this isn't the right place....not least because they probably only make sense to me, and they aren't written for anyone else. Personal therapy.
For the most part, my stories are purely fictional as I have never personally experienced the situations I write about. I have never been to a sex club, I have never had a threesome of any sort, I have never been with a woman. I've had some fast and dirty sex with men, as well as slow and sensual sex with my significant other. I've dabbled a bit in what some would consider "kinky", but most of my writing is from my imagination or perhaps a reflection of some of my fantasies. My poems, however, are a direct window to my actual feelings and based on my experiences. At least the ones I have posted on my page. I have written some for various threads which are in response to the topic of the thread.
What does this say about me personally? Does it reveal "me"? One comment I received on a story that I had prefaced with the disclaimer that it was written from my imagination was "Imagination, real life, who cares? This was HOT!" People can think what they want about me. I am fairly open in talking about myself to people, but the information I don't want known, I just don't tell. But people are always welcome to ask and in most cases, I will answer, at least partially.